"I feel like I'm getting old too" - an old text from 6 years ago as a tribute

Matt 2022-04-19 09:02:39

"I think I'm getting old too"
—— "One Yi" encountered at one o'clock in the morning

When 8-year-old yang-yang's timid "I think I'm getting old too" came from the headphones, facing my computer screen, I Tears welled up in my eyes in the silence of one o'clock in the morning. So, I was secretly glad that I didn't have too much background information before watching this movie called "Yi Yi". I don't know if it was intentional or unintentional negligence this time, but I deliberately and freshly appreciated the completeness that the movie gave me. And the original moving.

From the main line of the plot, "Yiyi" is a movie about middle-aged stories. I remember Mr. Dong Qiao's famous essay "Middle-aged is afternoon tea", and the beginning of the writing is: "Middle-aged is the most embarrassing. The age where you can’t fall asleep before dawn. The age where you can only sigh and don’t feel moved: the age where there is only sadness and no anger.” The hero NJ of “One One” seems to be in such an embarrassing state: the business crisis The company is facing bankruptcy, The mother-in-law suddenly suffered a stroke and fell into a coma, the wife couldn't bear to escape into the mountains to seek the comfort of the Buddha, and the first love suddenly appeared but was speechless...

"Can honest people pretend?" When he cooperated with the Japanese customer OTA, he could only retort a little angrily. In the embarrassing situation where his partner went back on his word several times, NJ purely insisted on his honest quality, and the OTA, who was compatible with his temperament, commented: "You have no ingenuity, you are a good person." However, NJ can not control the company. Decided, in the end, I lost my trust in OTA.

Hiding at home and facing her comatose mother-in-law alone, NJ, who has always been taciturn, couldn't help but have a lot of thoughts: "To tell the truth, the things that I thought I was sure of at first seemed to be pitiful, but now I wake up every day and feel a little sure. No, it seems that I finally fell asleep, why did I wake up again, let me face those troubles again and again. If you were me, would you choose to wake up? Maybe yang-yang is right, You've outlived us for so long, what can we tell you other than a lot of questions in our own minds? So I don't think you can blame yang-yang? You can't blame him for not coming to accompany you, in some places he really It's very similar to me."

NJ does have a son who is as pure as him, and 8-year-old yang-yang actually asks: "Dad, you can see I can't, I can see you can't, how do I know what you're watching? ...Can we only know half of the things? ... I can only see the front but not the back, so I can't see half of the things?" NJ was speechless and offered his son a Opportunity - a camera, so yang-yang has been tracking and photographing what he can see in his own eyes, that is, what he can't see in the eyes of others, so he almost took pictures of everyone around him. back of head. When I saw his photo being mocked and reprimanded by the dean of the school, I worried whether Yang-yang would grow up like his father in such a multi-dimensional world blinded by one-dimensional illusions and continue to maintain his true self. ?

Taking advantage of the opportunity to go to Tokyo for a business trip, NJ and SHERRY, his first love, whom he deliberately broke up with 30 years ago, walked side by side again, and revisited the memory of the past, but he rejected her request to get back together, although, "Except for you, I have no love anymore. Over others." So, the result of this reunion was that SHERRY left without saying goodbye - in a word, a lifetime? !

After returning home and seeing his wife who came back from the mountain, NJ said: "When you were away, I had the opportunity to live a period of time when I was young. I thought that if I said it again, maybe there would be a difference. It’s almost the same. I just suddenly feel that if I live again, it seems that there is really no need for that.” - Maybe, life can’t step into the same love twice, and middle-aged life is light like flowing water. Although there are some small waves, it is difficult to change Main melody.

At the death of old age, yang-yang finally decided to speak to his grandmother, "Mother-in-law, I'm sorry, it's not that I don't want to talk to you...Mother-in-law, you know there are too many things I don't know, so you know what I want to do in the future. What? I'm going to tell people things they don't know, and show them things they can't see. It must be fun every day. Maybe one day, I'll find out where you've been, can I? Tell everyone, let everyone come to see you? Mother-in-law, I miss you so much, especially when I see that little cousin who doesn't have a name yet, I will think of you and tell me, 'You are old', I miss you very much Say to him: 'I feel like I'm getting old too'". Looking at the youngest melancholy face I've ever seen, and listening to the hollow and solemn piano keys outside the screen, I finally couldn't hold back my tears. So, I gently tortured myself, should I stick to the innocence of middle age, or escape into the vicissitudes of youth?

In fact, this three-hour film is extremely rich in three-dimensional layers, and there are many clues floating indistinctly in addition to the above-mentioned plot line. The world is full of phenomena: persistence and rejection, commitment and escape, purity and ingenuity, innocence and vicissitudes, circulation and rupture, intimacy and alienation, speaking and being said, the rails of life and the impermanence of life... I actually came up in my mind To create an image of the director smiling and building blocks with heart, perhaps, for him, it is time to plan and construct.

Jia Zhangke, the sixth-generation director of the mainland, once wrote an article, juxtaposing "Yiyi" with "In the Mood for Love" and "Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon" as the three directions for "creating a new century of Chinese-language films", among the directors of the above three films. The oldest, Yang Dechang, was originally a representative of Taiwan's new wave movies. He was still very ambitious when he was middle-aged.

I'm really sorry, Director Yang Dechang, "One One" turned out to be the first movie I saw you, so I comforted myself with the English translation of the film: "A ONE AND A TWO" - I decided to do my best to find and read to all your movies!

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Yi Yi: A One and a Two... quotes

  • Ota: Why are we afraid of the first time? Every day in life is a first time. Every morning is new. We never live the same day twice. We're never afraid of getting up every morning. Why?

  • Yang-Yang: I'm sorry, Grandma. It wasn't that I didn't want to talk to you. I think all the stuff I could tell you... You must already know. Otherwise, you wouldn't always tell me to 'Listen!' They all say you've gone away. But you didn't tell me where you went. I guess it's someplace you think I should know. But, Grandma, I know so little. Do you know what I want to do when I grow up? I want to tell people things they don't know. Show them stuff they haven't seen. It'll be so much fun. Perhaps one day... I'll find out where you've gone. If I do, can I tell everyone, and bring them to visit you? Grandma, I miss you. Especially when I see my newborn cousin who still doesn't have a name. He reminds me that you always said you felt old. I want to tell him that I feel I am old, too.