After a few days of sleepless nights during the Chinese New Year, I finally finished this super-long animation, so I couldn't help but write something. Since the most mysterious character in this work is John, I want to write about John specifically.
how john became a monster
I believe this is a question that audiences want to figure out in the process of chasing the drama, and those insinuations and vague explanations in the animation will make many audiences scream, and feel that they have been tricked by the author for 73 episodes. For a long time, this big devil who has a headache in both black and white is because his mother has made him psychopathic. However, if you look closely at the details in the play, you can still deduce the process of John's change.
John is essentially an instigator. According to Buddhism, he is a brokenhearted monk. That is to say, those who sow discord among a group of people will eventually go to the Infernal Hell (that is, the one in the Infernal Realm). He uses language as a weapon to bring fear to others. He can always see through the deepest fears and weaknesses in people's hearts. For this, I think it is because he also experienced those fears when he was young, so he knows the effect they can have on people. ? At first it was Three Frogs. He faced the fear that his mother might abandon him, but he didn't expect that it was his younger sister who was abandoned. As a younger sister, how could he accept it? My sister finally came back, but she experienced a scene like hell on earth, a massacre for no reason. Poisoning will be even more terrifying for children, because how can people who are good in children's eyes suddenly die in pain? As if the devil existed, he chose to accept his sister's memory and felt the fear of everyone dying. Then he took his sister to the border of the country, passed out with hunger, and experienced true death. of fear. That scene, I think, must have been so imprinted in John's mind that he would have thought it was the scene at the end. And when he found out in the 511 orphanage that he could control the whole orphanage to kill each other, I believe that his inner fear of being a human disappeared. Later, he continued to manipulate people's hearts, which deepened his self-confidence. As he became more and more confident in his own abilities, he also despised those who could be manipulated at will. In the process, he lost his humanity more and more, and the proof was the few messages he wrote to Tianma. The monster in my body should be relatively weak at the beginning, but after John committed crimes again and again, the monster became bigger and bigger, until he was seen by the alcoholic, he was already a real monster . However, Nina's words awakened the monster.
what is the monster
Let me start with a conclusion, I think the monster here is fear.
As for what a monster is, I think it depends on what others say about John, what John does, and what his motivations are. In general, John did only one thing, and that was to observe the darkness and fear of human nature and dig it out. The irony is that this is actually the complete opposite of his ultimate goal of erasing his sister's past. While digging out the dark side of others to kill, he desperately covers up the dark side of his sister. This kind of contradictory psychology will definitely be put on a normal person. Crazy, the more John understands human nature, the more he understands the darkness in his sister's heart. So my sister's past is = it becomes an abyss, whoever stares becomes a monster, I can't help thinking that the reason why John becomes a monster and Nina doesn't is not only because of that missing word, but also thinks that John was born His understanding of human nature is far beyond ordinary people. He stared into the abyss of Nina and turned himself into a monster. Then he constantly released the fear and darkness in other people's hearts. He could easily use spiritual fear to make others surrender. Own. This kind of fear actually exists in his heart, but it has turned into a monster, and this monster is the fear imposed on others.
how john became human
I think in John's body, people and monsters have always existed at the same time, and when they said that their mother could recognize him in the face of the children in the orphanage, he should have awakened the human side of John, because he felt Jealousy and anger, these are human emotions, and monsters should have no reaction to them. And when he emailed Nina to pick her up before that, it was actually a monster, because Nina said she saw absolute evil, and at the same time I believe John would not be unaware of the importance of adoptive parents to Nina, but He still chose to kill them, and he had no intention of taking Nina away at all. I can only understand that his emails were a confession to his sister, and a tool to confuse her and sway the tiger away. He never wanted to take Nina away, He just wanted to wipe out his and Nina's past.
[Look at me, the monster inside me is already so big] This sentence was written by the human John. Is this asking Tianma for help or just playing with Tianma? I personally think it is the human John who is telling Tianma, Tianma It is John's spiritual father, and only human John will hope that his father understands his heart, and hopes that this father can not only save his body, but also save his soul.
As John finds out the truth of the matter, John realizes that he does not need to continue nourishing the monsters in his body, because all this is actually meaningless, what he has always done is wrong, and he has gone too far Far away, John's spirit collapsed, and this collapse, I think, is the beginning of John's transformation into a human being. And the reason why John established his personality is precisely because Tianma saved him once again. Salvation is an act of love and kindness. This time Tianma saved not only John's head, but also his soul. John had been shot dead, and the new John was expected to survive. (The sentence mentioned in the play: Were you born with expectations?) In the end, the condition that led to John becoming an adult was that he knew that he was originally named by his name. This is the first magic barrier in his heart, and facing this problem, even Tianma can't solve it, and he is also very frightened, because he thinks that John is still the monster in his heart, but all this is not important, the traces on the hospital bed show that John is no longer a monster with no trace, he is just a human with doubts.
John's feelings for Pegasus
My personal opinion is that John treats Tianma as his father. From the plot of John's childhood, we can find that the role of father is always absent in John's world. John not only lacks mother's love but also Lack of fatherly love, although General Wolf gave him a name, John's heart had already deteriorated before that, and what he gave John was a curse rather than a name (a name that would constantly remind him that he was monster without a name). So when Tenma said he risked everything to save him, John defined this behavior as what a father would do to his own children, and understood Tenma as a father-like role, a loving giver people of their own lives. It is only natural for Lao Tzu to beat his son (laughs), so John was only willing to let Tianma kill him.
John's end
In the end, John became a human, but how should a new life begin after becoming a human? (I can't help but want to complain that John has been hit in the brain twice, and has been bedridden for a long time, and his body is completely fine) I had hoped that John would lose his memory like Nina, and that would be a relief, but since he escaped, he should still remember everything. I imagined that this handsome man with a flat expression walked out of the hospital with solemn eyes and looked at the vast world outside. What would he think in his heart. I finally have a name, but no one can call me anymore, probably this is it.
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