The sixth story, the story of a young girl who lacks fatherly love and a genius uncle.
I read the first and second stories that were widely circulated a long time ago. The stories are very moving and exciting, but it feels like a trickle of warmth. Probably because I didn't have enough empathy until I finished the sixth story just now. On a weekend when I was so tired from work that I finally looked forward to sleeping at home, watching TV and doing laundry, I shed three big tears.
This story resonated deeply and reminded me of a man who once also encouraged me to grow up, and finally turned away like a genius, leaving a background in the lonely autumn park, I Called wait from behind, but he didn't look back.
The difference between me and Madeleine is that I have a father who gave me enough fatherly love when I was growing up, but somehow I still don't have enough, and still have some paranoia and desire for fatherly love. My father has stopped taking care of me like I did when I was a kid and encouraged me to tell me what to do in the future.
In fact, I have been walking very passively, belonging to the kind of life pushed by fate. From high school and college to work, I rarely really decided what to do. Until half a year ago, when I was 26 years old, I completely left my parents and changed jobs. I took a kitten from Chengdu to Beijing and lived on my own. on. I have to say, I always thought I was very independent, but when I really made a living on my own, I felt that I, like Madeleine, didn't really grow up.
Unhappy work, unhappy relationships, disagreements with friends, I will not talk to my father, especially when I am not around, I will talk about fewer topics. The days of living independently thousands of miles away from home for half a year are actually quite difficult. My heart and emotions have experienced a lot of ups and downs, and now I can still cope with a person like a genius. Otherwise, you may fall into the deep well of emotions and hug your legs and cry.
In fact, I met him a long time ago in the last company, but it was only a level of acquaintance, not a real friend. On the contrary, after I left, we were very close. We chatted during the day when we were not busy at work, and chatted at night when we couldn’t sleep or insomnia. The more we chatted, the longer we chatted, it was like we had endless things to say. They seem to know each other very well, and their personalities and knowledge, concepts and ideas are unusually matched. Moreover, he is much older than me, and his career and life are also much higher than me. Many times his maturity and stability can also affect my thoughts. Gradually, we seem to have developed a kind of dependence on each other, not like between men and women, but like dependence on friends and relatives. Like Madeleine and Genius, Madeleine was emotionally dependent on Genius for life and fatherhood, and I was dependent on him emotionally and emotionally.
Like Madeleine, I firmly believe that this kind of feeling is a projection of family affection, and it is impossible for him to be as emotional as between a man and a woman. Although I do not have much experience like Madeleine, the few experiences are still all suffering. harm. I always think that we will always maintain such a relationship of spiritual confidants whose soul resonates and resonates emotionally. Until one day he told me he was worried that our relationship would sour. I was so angry at first that I couldn't accept the decision to make a clean break and never see each other again. Later, he apologized and explained, I accepted, but I knew that we could not rely on each other without scruples like before. From what I know about him, I also know that he has made up his mind. I couldn't watch him leave, crying and begging him not to leave, after all, I want to grow up and face everything alone.
Crying and crying, what's the use of cursing fate like a mad dog, the process of growing up is very painful and difficult, but when it comes, you can only let go gently.
Although in the future no one will urge me to take medicine and see a doctor like my mother, like my brother to see what I eat with my new hairstyle, and like my father to tell me not to belittle myself, I can already face the situation of leaving home independently. work and live.
In any case, I would like to thank you for your company and consideration for the past six months. In the days to come, I will do well on my own. I think of him as a good friend who will be separated after I go to school, and I feel more relieved. Friends will leave and I have to live by myself. Although it is very painful, but pain is the only way for people to go through, and who is not in pain?
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