how do i end my life

Akeem 2022-12-16 07:42:25

I finished watching "The Gentleman of Moscow" two days ago, just to compare, two ways to end my life.

The Professor is insane. The film makes no secret of its flattery to the audience—

"Have you found out that your wife is cheating on you?" - FUCK!

"The cheating object is still your own boss?" - FUCK!

"Have you ever found yourself cheating once?" - FUCK! Then cheat! Just bang bang bang in the hotel bathroom! I have to find a gay to give me a mouth!

"Did you find yourself trembling and walking on thin ice when you were working?" - FUCK! If you don't want to take Lao Tzu's class, get out! I see who is unhappy, who will get out! I just want to drink and smoke marijuana in class! I also have to take the students to the bar openly and tell them that I just want to hook up with a maid on the spot! Fuck your fucking image!

"Ah, everyone is so fragile, shall we keep warm together?" - FUCK! Go to your mother's club! I only have a few days left! I just want to drink and smoke marijuana! You're going to die soon, why don't you hurry up and keep it? This is fucking happiness!

The leader said, "Do you like fish?" - "I like to eat it." - I just want to despise the leader, despise authority, a group of scumbags, who will kneel and lick your hypocritical performance or abide by your rules Acting like a subordinate?

Until the madness is over...

"I'm cool, I love this world, please love this world, please enjoy it, I'm leaving."

So the crowd applauded and called the curtain call.

This story looks really hopeless, it's like "Escape from Las Vegas", the difference is that this person doesn't want to die, he hasn't lived enough, the money is still there, the people are gone, so he can only quickly finish his clothes A forced run. The person was successfully shaped, and the story was told well, but I didn't think there was anything special about this person. Especially when he was educating students to cherish every breath, so he went to drink, smoke marijuana and promiscuous with the mentality of living a good life?

The inner logic of the movie doesn't make sense. It just restores the various rhetoric of a person on the surface as it is, but it is just a cover for the inner desire.

But if so, how many people don't do it? And most of the time, people seem to have become accustomed to this kind of pretense, obeying various family and social rules, but never ask whether this kind of life is what they want. In fact, they were extremely resistant to their own destiny in their hearts, but they accepted him helplessly, but they were still full of grievances.

It's just that, if you ask, it's no use. Of course, you can be free from the rules, you can indulge yourself, and then you find that you have lost your job and family, you have no money and no one to accompany you, and finally die in poverty and loneliness. So if you look at this person in the movie, even though the director gave him a golden finger and arranged a bunch of people to stay with him no matter what he did, he died in a few months. There are actually many such things in reality. Many elderly people have very bad tempers in their later years. They are violent, unreasonable, and never considerate. For this kind of person, if he is about to die, he will endure for a while, and if it is a long time, all kinds of family problems will break out. It is conceivable that if the professor found out that his cancer was misdiagnosed, he would definitely be beaten up.

On the one hand, I don't want to consider other people's feelings, I just want to feel good about myself;

On the one hand, I don't want to consider other people's feelings, I just don't want to have a pair of troubles to make myself uncomfortable;

Humans are indeed selfish creatures.

The Gentlemen of Moscow is restrained.

The Count was imprisoned in the hotel, doing indoor sports every day, recalling his hometown and his relatives, and maintaining the gentlemanly demeanor of aristocratic temperament to others. Fortunately, he found a confidante and a little angel who came to the door automatically. I was thinking that if the Count appeared in the movie "Professor", it would probably start with--

"My tm wants to stay in this place for 40 years?" - FUCK! Suicide bye bye!

But the Count accepted his fate. He didn't have so much hostility. He didn't completely abandon the civilized side like a professor. Live like an animal while teaching people how to behave. But how difficult it is to accept one's own destiny peacefully, what if there is no happy ending?

To be continued.

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The Professor quotes

  • Claire: The person one loves at first is not the person one loves at last. Love is not an end. It's a process through which one person attempts to know another.

    [pause]

    Claire: That's it.

    Richard: And, in a word?

    Claire: In TWO words, deceptively simple.

  • Peter: Why are you wearing sunglasses?

    Richard: I have cancer. I'm supposed to wear sunglasses in unusual places.