I really want to take it out and see that it's so real that it scares me
I feel the same way about every episode. I know in my heart that she has never done anything bad to me and she has done all her responsibilities. It seems that no one has done anything wrong. In two sentences, I want to get up and leave, wandering indefinitely between annoyance and guilt, I don’t know where there are so many knots in my heart that I can’t solve, there are always those suppressed feelings in my heart, I feel hypocritical discomfort and anxiety
That monologue that you can only talk if you die in your brain, if you are a stranger, you might become a friend is a real voice
When I saw him watching his friends get along with his mother, he felt the same way. I also had friends who told me that she and my mother would talk about a lot of topics between friends. I couldn't even imagine such a picture. Even if there was such a picture, I would not Be the one inside Never know why others can communicate with their parents and what it feels like and why they can get along Why can I get along well with other parents It's not her and she's my mother
My God, even my mother sometimes backs out on my affairs or requests Slowly I discovered that I began to care about discipline and cross the line, and the only people I cared about began to understand that she was right every time, every time she wanted to say a sentence without a sentence, it didn't matter when I talked about others comparing me and felt that I would never be able to show it. It's really annoying and suffocating. It's normal for me to want to disappear.
When she goes too far, she will imagine what it would be like to "leave", she will have expectations and hopes, and then she will linger in the guilt of whether she is too excessive. The thought of not being able to come back also changed my life with her.
When I communicate slowly I will just listen and say what she wants to hear and only do what I think she thinks is right and only show me what I think she can accept and the rest of the "me" will be hidden in everything she is not there Then I started to get used to this way of getting along and thought it was very effective and suitable, and then I started to deceive myself little by little that maybe we could get along, and then I held back every time there was a disagreement or discomfort and told me Don't talk about your own thoughts. Real communication is impossible.
Hahahaha his little fantasies are so cute every time
Even their quarrels I envy these quarrels only live in my fantasies and ideals I want to say these too, but these emotions can only pour over my body like a flood when I and her seem to be in a terribly harmonious state. heart
Resentment, suffocation, but helpless love, mother and child have long been unquestionably closely connected. Sometimes I try to understand this complicated relationship in my mind, but I can't figure it out.
I also have the kind of occasionally wanting to tell everything in one go and then it all ends up buried in my heart but I can never say it to this person
"Having a mother who you can neither love nor not love"
"The only thing to kill in this life is the inner enemy. It's hard to control. It's an art. How good an artist can we be?"
Sometimes I wish she could escape, escape from me, escape from our bondage, maybe she would have a better life and experience without me
When I saw him, I realized that it's really hard for a person like me to have the ability to love someone, I don't know what it's like, I don't know how to be considerate of others
Really talented, very delicate, and a lot of detail. I was about 23 or 24 years old. I slowly understood this kind of twisting to the extreme. He filmed it when he was 20 years old. Really fucking talented
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