I don't know how long it has been.
Always remember.
I remember going out late at night, cycling alone to the city, ordering a fast food, and eating in the middle of a fast food restaurant where I was the only customer, only the waiter put the surrounding chairs on the table one after another. The loneliness at that time was deeply rooted, unbearable and unavoidable.
At that time, I remembered the fallen angels because of consolation. I am reminded of Wong Kar-wai's peculiar rotating shot at McDonald's late at night, where Dawn picks up the fries on the plate and feeds it into his mouth. Think of Li Jiaxin's desperate cry after masturbating in the room, think of Jin Chengwu waiting in the rain at the rainy night stadium, think of Karen Mok's cry after leaving at dawn. Reminds me of Yang Cai Ni who regards the inflatable doll as Jin Maoling.
I feel consolation. Because everyone is alone. Inescapable loneliness. Looking at the street after coming out of the fast food restaurant, there are still so many people floating on the street in the middle of the night, with gray tiredness and desertion.
Everyone is lonely. I comfort myself like this. There are many people who are suffering from unavoidable loneliness.
Now I think about the fallen angels again. In the morning after an emotional storm.
Emotional breakdown. A mess.
Last night, I recalled the past romances, the injuries, the injuries, guilt, and pain caused to each other. Almost didn't make it through. Emotional matters cannot be thought about.
I started to fall into self-doubt. Probably our relationship with me will inevitably degenerate into corruption in the end, which will cause huge damage to both parties. I can't help but think that I must have some kind of flaw, some element of being incapable of being normal.
I think of Takeshi Kaneshiro in the Fallen Angels, breaking into the store at night and locking the family into the ice cream truck. I thought at the time that he probably also had some factor that prevented him from being a normal person. But he is happy.
Self-doubt is enough to destroy life. Wong Kar-wai offers another way out.
I understood the deliberate alienation of the dawn at that time. He deliberately cast himself as a lonely ghost. So there is the story of Li Jiaxin and Karen Mok.
There are still some people in this world who will inevitably hurt themselves and others. Can't master the skills of the beginning and the end. Or, what's more, having something that doesn't make for a normal human interaction. Therefore, they choose to be alone. Like a fallen angel.
I finally understood why I couldn't see the heaviness of loneliness I thought in the eyes of Dawn and Takeshi Kaneshiro.
I think the demeanor of eating French fries in a late-night fast food restaurant must be very different from Dawn's. It turns out that loneliness is not inevitable, but their choice.
In order not to be hurt, in order not to be hurt to others, the fallen angels chose loneliness.
Wong Kar-wai sings praises of loneliness.
Actually Fallen Angels had an ending that was subtracted from the movie. But you can find it online. After Li Jiaxin said, "But this minute, I feel so warm." After that, Li Jiaxin got out of the car outside the convenience store at the gas station. After walking a few steps, he held her, she turned back, and they kissed passionately for a short time. encounter. After the passionate kiss, Li Jiaxin turned around and entered the convenience store. Takeshi Kaneshiro looked at her, then waved, stepped into the car, and left.
No matter how wonderful the warmth of those few minutes was, Li Jiaxin still chose to turn around. No matter how eager Takeshi Kaneshiro's eyes were, he still chose to wave goodbye. There is no more text, we meet by chance.
They are lonely, very lonely.
But it's their choice.
This is the way out that Wong Kar-wai told us.
Loneliness is the salvation of fallen angels.
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