So just spit out some thoughts here.
First, this kind of story that looks tall but is actually vulgar, just like "Don Juan", which packs a vulgar story with language, form, and age. It is very delicious. To put it bluntly, it is the story of I love you, but you don't love me, but I love him. Love, love, and nothing to do, but in the strong historical background of World War II, they all seem advanced. To put it bluntly, this story is: looking at the face, the fatal charm of Luccien, the insecurity of college freshmen, all kinds of identity crises, all kinds of decadence, all kinds of talents.
If Ginsberg wasn't a freshman, if he wasn't foolishly looking for his presence on the huge campus, he wouldn't have joined the cool kids club and fooled around with a cool looking senior. It is estimated that Ginsberg didn't feel guilty about his mother being put in a mental hospital because of his playfulness before Lu abandoned him and Jack to go to France. He was enjoying the moment while hanging out with the decadent gang, he felt like he was going to change literature, he felt like he was doing something beyond life. But after being betrayed, he realized that everything was a result of the bamboo net. The so-called cause and the so-called change were all just Lu's whim. They had neither the ability to implement the plan nor the motivation. This is the charm of Lu, this is the charm of the university. He makes you play around and makes you give up everything for the so-called ideal that makes no sense. To paraphrase Lu: "You were ordinary, but I made your life extraordinary". Lu knew the reason why so many people turned around him. We are all ordinary people, but we all want to live an extraordinary life. Lu, on the other hand, uses this desire to control others.
Furthermore, everyone has a love for beauty. Lu has a harmless little white face and a tall figure. When he and Gins were lying on the lawn, he gently rested his head on Gins' shoulders, that kind of attachment, that kind of tenderness, I am afraid that no matter what gender it is, people will melt. Bar. Lu is not a villain, he never purely takes advantage of other people's feelings for him, he will also put his feelings into the moment, and he will also love each other. I believe that at that moment, Lu had a good impression and trust in Gins, but when Gins took the initiative to kiss and express his love, he realized that he had a stronger feeling for himself, and based on past experience, Lu knew that this kind of emotional difference could bring him to benefit.
There are many people like Lu around. Someone who gives you a sense of intimacy, makes you feel attached, loved, respected, and accepted. Not limited to the opposite sex, often the same sex. And when you think you may be the best friend/lover in his/her life, he/she pats his butt and turns away without leaving a single tear, leaving you in a corner suffering for three months. This kind of person often enters a circle and makes it uneasy, and enters your life and makes you feel the pleasure of rebirth. They often have endless gossip, activities to play or not, countless friends, and unclean thoughts. They came vigorously and disappeared without a trace. It's like a chunk of seemingly unfillable entity that's been sucked out of your life in an instant. And Gins and David may not be able to get out of this emptiness and keep revolving around Lu.
People like Lu have a powerful ability to love. They walk among all kinds of people, throwing trust and goodwill at will, until someone takes the bait. You can't blame him for being slutty, promiscuous, because they are born stunners and his attraction is innate. I call this kind of person a devil, a devil. He drains your soul and then attaches to others. Wherever he goes, he turns it into his slut cave and other people's hell.
Identity crisis is something that every young person has experienced. It is the kind of helpless pleasure that oneself is not worthy of one's own ideals, rejecting all one's own and becoming another person. Every time yy's ideal self will feel pleasure, but will be driven into the abyss of pain by the frustration and helplessness that follow. All the protagonists and supporting characters in Kill Ru Ai are attached to each other and depend on each other. Everyone is looking for the ideal self in others, and I believe that as long as you pay close attention to this person, your own life will be sublimated. This idea is undoubtedly fatal, both then and now. David is looking for a home, understanding, and love in Lu because he is cast aside by society for being gay; Gins is a freshman and has no friends because he has no friends. In addition, his Jewish identity is despised by white people, and he longs for his own value to be recognized. , his talent is appreciated; and the drug addict, the rich boy, finds rebellious pleasure in this gang of decadent colleagues; Jack is a young man who has nothing to do and no talent, and finds comfort in his family and his wife in participating in decadent activities. freedom to live.
And Lu is the object of everyone's attachment. He carries the unrealistic ideals of everyone. He must satisfy the pleasure that everyone is looking for, whether it is love, sex, recognition, destination, or freedom. These voids that could never be filled by one person created a tragedy, pushing everyone to the brink of disappointment, and destroying the overloaded Lu.
Decadence is often the only way to failure. But decadence is the state of life that the "Beat Generation" must experience in order to succeed. That's the charm of that era. A true Western society is seeking to break the rules and destroy traditions. A true thinker goes against the mainstream. Western society has experienced the setbacks of World War II and is eager to change the status quo, giving birth to this generation of non-mainstream thinkers. People crave everything that is forbidden, crime, drugs, lasciviousness, rebellion. Lu represents this desire, he is what all people of that era pursued, in terms of lifestyle and spiritual thinking.
Finally, talent. There are people who break the rules of all times, but new ideas are always brought forward by talented people. Lu is a person with ideas, but his ideas were eventually carried forward by his colleagues in the decadent gang.
The story of killing your love itself doesn't stand out, but it should be made somewhat important by the background of the times and the characters of the story. Again, the story is originally vulgar, but it's very real and interesting, it has everything, and the element of homosexuality is always controversial.
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