Before I was born, there were already many people in the world. After I was born, I either realized that "there are a lot of people other than me", or I didn't admit that there were a lot of people other than me. The latter is the meaning of "escape" in the EVA series. Do not admit that, in the spiritual world, "others" are cancelled, there is no conflict within the spiritual world, and "others" in the real world still exist. As long as I'm still in contact with people in the real world, there will be things that I don't expect, things I don't like, things that are denied and rejected by my spiritual world, things I hate, and conflicts will happen. In order to completely implement the conflict-free state of the spiritual world, we can only cancel others in the real world. In the fantasy world, killing and destroying the world, the Allen perspective of "Attack on Titan" can also do this kind of understanding; Yin and Yang weirdness.
How to treat others is a difficult question, otherwise Asuka wouldn't have a nervous breakdown because of seeing the past. The gaps that can’t be bridged by daily life are so big that they will fall open with gravity. Every day’s efforts are just to resist gravity, and one day they will fall open when they let go.
Asuka's most important "other" is her mother (who is Shinji's most important "other"?), and she relies on blessings to resist gravity. Because blessings are not powerful, Shinji is half a substitute. Between Mom and Asuka: Doll; "Die with Mom"; "Look at me Mom!". Mom doesn't look at Asuka, mom just hugs the doll and talks to the doll intimately; Mom committed suicide, in order to be close to mom, do you want to die with mom? I don't want to die yet, I want to think by myself and live by myself; I drive EVA for the purpose of "Mom, look at me!", EVA is a big doll that is not as good as me, I am much stronger than a doll, mother love me.
Mom committed suicide before she knew Asuka became an EVA driver. Asuka had no way of knowing whether this proof logic was valid or not, so she got stuck, stuck on constantly proving "I can drive EVA, see how strong I am!". Later, in front of Asuka, the blessing showed his preference for Katsuragi Misato, and Shinji did not take the initiative to "see" Asuka. Her "EVA + I am strong" logic was falsified after a mission failure, and Asuka collapsed.
The theatrical version made Asuka wake up at the bottom of the lake. I don't know if there is a metaphor for depression at the bottom of the lake. After waking up, Asuka immediately understood that the AT force field was her mother, which was much faster than Shinji, who only understood after Space Odyssey and Zero Kaoru explained. AT Force Field is Mom, "Mom is watching me all the time". The mother's voice that Asuka heard, in addition to the "let's die together" heard in the past, also appeared a lot of "don't die", "won't let you die", "I hope you live", in fact, all of Asuka's internal Mom, Asuka understands. Asuka began to accept and tolerate her mother's suicide, and allowed herself to have a different choice from her mother: I want to live.
The AT force field is the boundary, and the boundary is formed because of the existence of others. "You can only know your own shape when you see the shape of others, and only when you see the barrier between yourself and others can you imagine your own shape" (TV 26), AT The force field attests to the existence of others, while providing a reflection of itself. In the presence of the AT force field, others seen from one's own point of view are others in one's own spiritual world, partially overlapping with others in the real world and others in their spiritual world.
Allow others to exist in the spiritual world, allow others to make choices for others, and allow yourself to make choices for yourself. No longer equates other people's unsatisfactory demands and actions with conflicts, can create a "difference" space for others in one's own spiritual world, allow others to exist, allow others to be different, not feel threatened by it, and do not feel uncomfortable because of others Repulsion and attack. This is the meaning of Shinji's choice to return to the past world after experiencing the sea of LCL, escape from others → cancel others → acknowledge others, so "others" can exist in Shinji's spiritual world.
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Asuka said, "Mama has been protecting me, Mama has been watching me", really? Half of the mother's soul integrated into EVA No. 2 is protecting her and watching her, which can be so materialized; understood as a metaphor, EVA, as a huge "I", shows the "I" of the outside world/others, the shell of "I" , The image of "I", supporting the advancement of EVA No. 2 is "I am very strong, so mother look at me!" In this advancing "I", there is half of mother's soul, which half?
(TV 22) "Let's die with mom." But Asuka wants to live: "I don't want mom and dad, I want to live alone." At the same time, Asuka has another answer: "I die with mom, so mom doesn't want to. Leave me." But this request was rejected by the mother's voice (Asuka's inner mother), why? Before her mother committed suicide, she regarded Asuka as a stranger and the doll as her daughter; after her mother committed suicide, all Asuka's requests to her mother were blocked by death. This is two layers of rejection.
"Let's die with Mom" is what Mom said to the doll after she lost her soul and went mad (TV 25). Dad cheated and betrayed, and mom hugged the doll on the hospital bed and said, "Your dad hates mom and doesn't want mom anymore. It must have disliked me from the beginning, and didn't want me from the beginning. So die with mom. , Dad doesn't want us anymore." Later, Asuka became an EVA driver and ran home excitedly, only to find that her mother had really committed suicide, and the doll was twisted and threw her head on the ground. The doll died as the mother's daughter, so Asuka had a sentence in her consciousness, "Mom, please don't kill me." The voice of young Asuka: "No! I'm not my mother's doll, I have to think for myself and live on my own!"
Mom sent an invitation to the doll/Asuka's replacement: "die with mom." Mom really committed suicide, and death has since become another name for mom. There is no room for differences. Being close to mother means smoothness, and smooth mother will die with mother. "I don't want to die" and "Mom don't leave me" are wishes that Asuka can't control, and she can't resolve the conflict between the two. The fear of death is attached to the desire to be close to her mother, and it permeates and diffuses into other relationships. Closeness = death, which is the starting point of Asuka's fear of interpersonal relationships. The father's betrayal and indifference, and the stepmother's hostility, exacerbated Asuka's fears. So Asuka strongly resists others: "I want to live alone", "don't depend on anyone", "don't come near me". (TV 25) After reviewing the painful experience, Asuka, who had completed the recovery, concluded: "No one wants to protect me, and no one wants to stay by my side." Answering "What do you want?": "I want to live alone, But it's painful, don't want to be alone!" These are variations on "I don't want to die" and "Mom don't leave me."
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Asuka's transformation offers no inside perspective. Narrated from an external perspective, it is the change of the mother in Asuka's spiritual world that drives Asuka's transformation. (Theatrical version of "Air") Asuka heard her mother's voice at the bottom of the lake: "Don't die", "I won't let you die", "I hope you live", and the "die with mother" I heard before. Overlapping, and finally Asuka yells "I don't want to die!!!", then the tide rises and Asuka wakes up. The mother in Asuka's spiritual world allowed Asuka to choose to live, and the mother's soul inside EVA joined hands with the childhood Asuka in her memory. Does it mean that after Nika committed suicide once, she finally understood why her mother craved death more than she craved to live? Does it mean that Nika finally no longer feels guilty because her desire to live outweighs her attachment to her mother? Does it mean that Asuka's resistance to death is the mother's protection for Asuka (The Hours: Someone has to die in order that the rest of us should value life more)? Does it mean that mother has always been the object of desire and resistance, entrenched in the entire spiritual world of Asuka, can it also be regarded as the company of mother? do not know. "Air" does not provide an explanation of Asuka's internal perspective.
From an external perspective, it seems that her mother is tolerant and understanding of Asuka, creating a space of difference for Asuka. In fact, the main body with spiritual activities is only Asuka. It is Asuka who heard her mother's permission in the spiritual world, and thus in her own spiritual world. Reconciliation with mother was achieved. Because differences are allowed, "love" and "death" can be untied, "life" and "love" can coexist, and Asuka is "alive" as a whole. The awakened Asuka, shown from the outside perspective, embraces the AT force field and hugs her mother, generating great courage and strength. It's just that the reality is still cruel, and the courage and strength are not enough to reverse it.
One thought changes, the difference between the front and the back is earth-shaking, and the structure of the whole person is reversed, and this completely opposite thought, structure, and trend are attached to the same person and thing, which is really amazing. "Affliction is Bodhi" probably means this.
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Asuka refuses the apostles to read minds, offering an explanation for "escape." There is no ability to bridge the gap, and when you look at the gap, you will fall into the abyss, so you can't even look at it.
Asuka's strong personality seems to be the driving factor behind her intense mental crisis. Others, with less intense personalities and more "avoidance", did not directly encounter a mental crisis of this intensity. But it is also this strong character that allows her (because she is not hindered by herself) to intuitively and decisively handle the inner core contradictions, and quickly distill the mixed will of life and death into a pure will to survive. When Shinji encountered a crisis, he kept saying "Asuka save me", he was paralyzed on the ground, with no will to live or die, saying "I want to die" is not really wanting to die, but later saying "I'd better do nothing" is more accurate , is completely discouraged, either dead or alive.
Or, if it is explained that Nikka's path is not to avoid others → cancel others → admit others, but, whether it is out of intentional choice or because of mental inability and being pushed on the path of mother, Asuka did commit suicide just like her mother, but She didn't die. So can it be said that she finally got her mother's way and agreed to the invitation to "die with my mother"? After rejecting "others" for a long time, he still chose to meet "others".
Mom stayed in half of the soul of EVA No. 2, and I don't know which ends the plot setter took. If you use life and death to guess, is the will of life or death retained in the second machine? If it is the will to live, it seems to make sense. Mom kept her will to die and committed suicide; Asuka wants to live, driving an EVA and living confidently. Asuka, who could no longer synchronize with EVA No. 2, committed suicide; Asuka, who returned to No. 2, shouted "I don't want to die", thus seeing the soul of her mother in EVA. Half of my mother's soul in EVA is the will to live, so Asuka said: "Mom has been protecting me, watching me, and always with me."
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The plot designer is not very friendly to Asuka. How many ingredients of Asuka's awakening are to assist the plot? If there is no need for the plot, will she keep sleeping in Ward 303/the bottom of the lake? Even if you wake up/untie the knot, you can't escape being brutally murdered by the real world. In order to wake her up, in order to kill her, the maliciousness will be borne by the strongest Asuka, which is too bitter.
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