only uses this document to say goodbye to Heath Ledger, who also said goodbye in his youth. You, like River, are incomparable.
The year when the angel said goodbye by the road, I gradually can't remember, the remaining memory is only a large cloud floating in the wilderness, and the white hut that occasionally flashes. That afternoon, I stood alone on the never-ending road, listening to the ticking sound of my pocket watch, I wrapped my green fleece jacket tightly, and fell down slowly for the first time sober, this time, I will not. I woke up again with a smile on my face because when I opened my eyes I didn't feel uneasy and cold in any unfamiliar place.
"The highway at 38 degrees Celsius, because without you, is like a snowy winter.".
Perhaps the most desperate thing for people is to try their best to run, only to find that there is no end at all.
Mike sits by the fire, he whispers "I love you" to Scott, maybe all he wants is a hug, like in a thousand dreams, lying on his mother's lap, so reassuring warmth. But being frivolous so many times when he was young, for him, this is life. He is a simple child and doesn't want to take anything from life. Even if it is Scott's ruthless revenge, he has never indulged. He is simply thinking, simply getting along with friends, simply missing, and simply living a dirty and numb life. A life without any hope of any purpose, like the road that never ends, is all that fate has given him. Maybe the momentary coma gave him, instead, he could enjoy the happiness of a family as warm as heaven, and only when he completely lost consciousness could he really return to himself.
But why does my heart hurt so much?
The shattered face, the white hut, the big, changing yellow clouds, the wobbly figure of him getting up from the roadside bench wrapped in his brown coat; he and scott were draped in green plaid sheets Laughing wildly with a stick in his hand; he was sitting in the bathtub playing with foam, a childish smile; he slowly fell on the dirty floor of the station, surrounded by cigarette butts and phlegm, clutching his luggage tightly, that This is his home; he leaned on scott's shoulder and cried bitterly; he lay flat on the wooden bed, listening to the moaning of the men and women upstairs, the eyes of despair and confusion...
Who is to judge? Should Gus van sant be so invested in a role? When Gus van sant was filming "elephant", he looked at the blond boy who was swaying over, would he think of River, would he think that because Idaho made river pay the price of his life , In order to be able to interpret the morbidly beautiful Mike at the bottom of the society more realistically, he tried to experience the character by taking psychedelic drugs, which resulted in tragic consequences. The play has ended, but he can no longer return to his normal life. Because of an overdose of mixed drugs, in 1993, the 23-year-old River repeated the ending of the movie because of an overdose of mixed drugs, fell on the road, and did not have to wake up again.
Some people can regard life as a game, and they can get out without waiting for the end of the song; while some people are fully engaged, and they are so intoxicated that they do not want to wake up. I don't know what Mlke was thinking when he finally looked at Scott's closed lips and cold expression from afar. The last time he stood on the road, I clearly saw snow falling, slowly covering his legs, White socks, pale hands.
Mike is lucky after all, the script ends with scott driving him back from the road; but River can only lie on the icy road forever, the road of a man.
——2005.6.4 First night in Toronto
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