I've always wanted to write something for this drama, but I haven't started writing it for a long time. Today, I suddenly want to write something, so let's write a little bit. From the perspective of the drama itself, it will fall into a closed state, and learning without thinking is useless. Thinking without learning is at risk. If you only watch the drama without connecting with your life, you may fall into the drama and be unable to extricate yourself. After watching this drama in my life, I have a new understanding of life, and I am very happy.
November 27, 2021, it was actually just a few days ago. When I think about that day now, I don’t seem to remember the details completely. I just remember the feeling at the time that I realized my completion.
I am a junior this year, and the end of my junior year is almost over. My major is under a lot of pressure at the end of each semester. There are five professional courses, four experimental courses, course design, various reports, and a lot of work. I have been thinking all along, thinking about life and the future, it is a life plan, how should I go in the future? When I am a junior, I have to face a choice, whether to take the postgraduate entrance examination or get employment. Our school, our major, is the kind that has a lot of postgraduate entrance examination guarantees. I was thinking, can I not take the postgraduate entrance examination? Why should I take the exam? Why do they study? Can I not take the exam? It seems like the answer is obvious, but reality is not the same as theory, reality is much more complicated than theory. Can I not climb up and go to the first-tier cities in Beijing, Shanghai, Guangzhou and Shenzhen? I don't like children, I think they are noisy, I don't think I can give them a good educational environment, emmm is, I can't reach my ideal educational environment, I only have a Henan hukou, and I have no money, I don’t have that much money at home. If I have a child, I will not be free. I have to spend a lot of time on my child. I don’t like this. I’m not happy. I don’t know if this will make me happy. More happiness, or more trouble and disgust. Of course, this is all far away. Then I temporarily decide not to have children. Based on this assumption, I will have a lot less trouble and possible happiness in the future. Self-centered, with my happiness, I want to be happy as an indicator. Then can I stop working so hard, and I can just be happy, okay? In the past few years, I have changed a lot. The books I read and the things I experienced have made me change a lot. Although my academic performance is not very good, I have read a lot of books and feel that I have some ideas of my own. It seems that robots have their own minds. Yes, that sentence is quite correct. I want to pursue my own happiness, I don’t want to be introverted, this society is too convoluted, how can I be so convoluted in my major, I can’t do it if I don’t do it, I’m exhausted and exhausted, can I not do it? I don't pursue a big house, a big car, and an x account, can I? Can I work directly, can I not take the postgraduate entrance exam? I want to go back to my hometown and find a stable job. It doesn’t matter if I’m tired. I don’t want to learn new knowledge. I just don’t want to learn. I’m upset about learning professional knowledge. I still can’t learn it. Although they are all ordinary, I feel very good and very happy. I don't want to take the postgraduate entrance examination, why do others take this road, can I not? What are they studying for? Are you running away? Or do you want to improve your education, get a good job and make more money, or do you want to concentrate on academics? I don't know, there are thousands of roads, can I not take this road. I want to live a comfortable life, I want to make a little happiness for myself
But no, my family doesn’t agree, they insist on asking me to take the postgraduate entrance examination, how good is the postgraduate entrance examination? If I don’t take the postgraduate entrance examination, I will not be able to find a job. The salary is low, and direct employment will not work. It takes a year of hard work to deal with the postgraduate entrance examination. Communication is fruitless. Not supporting, not understanding, not even wanting to listen to my explanation, I am miserable, I am troubled, I am angry, I am not happy. Can't you do not study? Is my choice wrong, this road is so good, I hate learning, can't I stop learning?
Postgraduate entrance examination is so difficult, is it better for graduate students?
Guanshan is difficult to overcome, and whoever grieves for the lost.
My long-cherished wish is to be able to live comfortably and happily, with a short body and a soaring soul, but I may not be able to wait.
The circle of friends that I posted that day, and I discussed it with my family in the evening, but it was fruitless. It was night again, and I was even more troubled. Oh, by the way, I usually like to read science fiction, and I feel that my thoughts are a bit different from normal people, hahaha.
Then I was very depressed. This kind of thing is very common. There are wolves in front and tigers in the back. I was very tired at the end of the period, and my family did not support your ideas. At that time, I really wanted to die. Fortunately, I Strong-willed, I don't die in a moment of confusion, I can make choices, and I can live happily. Maybe the same is true for many people. The last straw that broke the camel, life is too difficult. If you stick to it, from another angle, there may be many fewer people who commit suicide.
The next day, the counselor called me to communicate, and my dad also understood me and agreed with my idea. I was very touched, I was really touched, I burst into tears, that is, the self-awareness produced was recognized by others, especially my parents. It can be said that this is my first victory, the first breakthrough in the planning constraints of my parents, older brothers and sisters. I am very happy, just like the last encouragement of Shinji's parents, that is what Shinji desires most, I am very happy, especially happy.
At that moment, I felt like I was done, I became a whole person, not a broken person, no longer a robot, but a recognized self-aware person. I have the right to choose happiness and I can live the life I want.
i am very happy
The individual is too small and too fragile. You know how hard it can be when your personal thoughts don't align with most people's. The worldview held by only one person is trivial, but one can only measure things by his own small benchmark. How fragile is the human mind. After understanding, after reconciling with yourself and others, you can treat yourself gently.
Thank you, father, thank you, mother and all the children, congratulations!
Human, Lilin, the beast that calls for love at the center of the world, wants to remove the barriers of the heart and build a world where mutual understanding and no barriers exist. But in reality, there is no human completion plan, we need to complete it by ourselves, even if it is likely to take an entire lifetime, don't give up the hope of life, and desire to love and be loved.
Different age groups have different understandings. As people get older, the more they like to deny the ignorant self in the past, why bother? reconcile, friend
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