I am an ordinary mother and
I love my son very much. Tao Jun
Tao Jun was born with mental insufficiency and lost his father since he was a child, which made him always bullied outside. I remember one time when he came back his face was covered in mud, and his clothes were torn.
I asked him: "Tao Jun, what's wrong with you? You've been bullied again?!" The
son nodded: "Mom, everyone always says something I don't understand, and then beats me for no reason. I can only I ran, but I couldn't outrun them. I'm so scared! Mom, I'm so scared"
"Don't be scared, dear boy, what did they say? What makes my Tao Jun not understand?"
"They always call me 'idiot' Then he laughed out loud. Mom, what is 'idiot'? You didn't teach me the word, what does it mean? Why do they call me 'idiot' and not by my name?"
Looking at the son pure The eyes that are like gems, my heart hurts, it really hurts! I will not allow others to bully my children like this, absolutely not!
I held back my tears and held my son in my arms: "Tao Jun, listen to your mother! The word 'idiot' is used to describe those bad children. My Tao Jun is so good, how can he be a bad boy?! You have to learn to protect yourself, from now on! Do you hear me?" The
son nodded in agreement: "Mom, then, next time if people call me that, what should I do? If they keep chasing and beating Me, what should I do?"
I told him: "If someone dares to call my Tao Jun an 'idiot', hit him hard! If the other party hits you once, you will pay back twice! Are you here?" My
son nodded and said, "Well, Tao Jun remembered it!"
Since then, I have rarely seen Tao Jun's clothes torn or his face covered in mud. . I am really relieved that my son learns to protect himself.
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I remember when Tao Jun was five years old, my body suddenly felt very uncomfortable. I really couldn’t tell how to describe it. This feeling lasted for a long time. Finally, under the persuasion of my friend, I went to the hospital for an examination. The result of the examination made me stunned! The test sheet said: "Cancer!"
Omg! How can you be so unfair? ! It doesn't matter how I am, but what about my son? My poor Tao Jun! I am dead, who will take care of him? He lost his father at such a young age, and now even I have to leave him, how can this child survive? ! He is physically disabled, and unlike other children, no one would take in such a burden. Leaving him alone in this world, how much grievance and sin will he suffer? ! God, open your eyes and look at me! what do I do? What should I do! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! I was so desperate that I seemed to have lost the courage to live, and my eyes inadvertently swept across the pesticide placed in the corner. I stared at the corner for a long time, and suddenly a voice flashed in my mind, getting stronger and stronger: Suicide! Take my lovely Tao Jun to another world so I don't have to leave him alone and I can continue to be with my beloved son! Yes, suicide! To make sure I can walk with the kids, I must not die first. I have to send the child away with my own hands in order to be at ease and follow him with peace of mind. Nothing can separate us from mother and son. Children, please understand the painstaking efforts of being a mother, mother really can't bear to let you suffer in this world again!
I called my son and poured the pesticide into a bottle in front of his face, then handed it to him and said, "Son, come! Drink something, very good thing!" Tao Jun looked excitedly Me: "Mom, what is it?" "Here, it's in this bottle, drink it, hurry up and drink it!" The son looked at the bottle and then at the "insecticide" on the empty bottle next to him The three words stayed for a while. I was a little anxious, "Come on, mother feed you a drink, be good, open your mouth, ah..." Just like that, I fed the poison to my son, and I saw him drink the medicine obediently. I was relieved, and hurriedly poured the rest of the son's drink in the bottle into his mouth.
It was God's will, maybe the pesticides of this brand were not toxic enough. Neither Tao Jun nor I died, but we vomited and diarrhoea for several days. Later, it was the neighbor who sent my wife to the hospital, got some injections, took some medicine, and everything was fine. What makes me laugh even more is that when I was in the hospital for a few days of blood test, the doctor told me a big news: my body is not at all wrong, the previous discomfort was only because of lack of qi and blood. Supplements like root and wolfberry are just fine! I wondered why it was diagnosed as "cancer?!" When I asked, I found out that on the day I went for the test, a cancer patient was admitted to the hospital, and the sick woman's name was exactly the same as mine! At that time, there were many patients in the hospital, and the doctor was very busy, so he accidentally made a mistake in the two test sheets. The doctor kept apologizing to me, but I couldn't cry for a long time. One mistake almost killed my son and me? ! Fortunately, it was the blessing of fate that kept us alive, which gave me some confidence in life.
Son's Confession:
It was really uncomfortable at that time. Later, I realized that what my mother had given me to drink turned out to be poison! It turns out that pesticides are poisonous, so be careful in the future! My mother is too bad. She usually keeps telling me that she loves me and protects me, but why is she coming to kill me now? ! I'll never forget that terrible time, I'll never be able to forgive her, I've decided to never sleep with her again, stay away from her, hum! ! Once, my mother sneakily called me over and said she had something good to show me! what is this? I saw my mother took out a small tin box with flowers painted on the outside. After opening it, it was filled with silver needles for acupuncture. My mother told me that when she was doing acupuncture for others, she accidentally discovered an acupoint on the inner thigh. This acupoint can not only relieve the pimples in the heart, but also make people forget those terrible memories. Really? Can you really forget? I do not believe! She didn't poison me with the poison last time, but this time she will kill me with acupuncture. No, I have to leave this place! It's so scary! However, when I was still young, I couldn't compare to my mother's strength at all. In the end, my mother stabbed the silver needle into my thigh while I was crying. At that time, I only felt a tingling pain that penetrated the heart from the base of the leg all the way to the top of the head, then a severe headache, and then passed out.
When I woke up, I suddenly realized that I had forgotten something important! ! Oops, what's the matter? Why can't I remember, it's so annoying! In desperation, I pressed my hands against my temple for a while, feeling as if this would make me feel better! It's amazing, it really reminds me of it after such a massage! The thing that I forgot was what my mother once said to me: "If someone dares to call my Tao Jun an 'idiot' again, hit him hard! If the other party hits you, you will get two Give it back! Remember it?" Haha, I remembered it, I remembered it! This trick is very useful. If I need to recall something in the future, I will use this trick. Let's call it "move the temples", haha! At this time, I saw my mother's eyes gradually change from inexplicably terrible to the same kind smile as usual. "It's getting late, go to bed earlier!" "Well, sleep with my mother!" To tell the truth, I like to touch my mother's body to fall asleep, it makes me feel so safe. Mom is my world. Mom can't live without me, and I can't live without her, eh!
Mother's Confession:
In my heart, he is the naughty Tao Jun who never grows up, the Tao Jun who always hugs me when he sleeps, and the Tao Jun who let me feed him medicine when he urinates , is that Tao Jun who asked me to put food in a bowl. But his body is growing after all, and he is getting taller day by day, as tall as an adult! That aspect has gradually begun to awaken, and he often mentions girls to me, and often picks up all kinds of strange things, saying that they are to give to his sweetheart! What kind of sweetheart does he have? my silly son! But no matter whether anyone likes him or not, I will stay by his side and take care of her forever.
As Tao Jun has grown and changed on the surface, he has brought more and more troubles to the family. At first, it was just the parents in the town who complained, saying that Tao Jun was insanely beaten because of his child's "idiot". Later, after hanging out with that bad boy named Zhentai, he became even more like Bengali, and the police station often came to the house and asked me to pick up people. The police are really troublesome, either this or that, I really don't know what to do! Later, I thought of a good way to give them a gift, just give me the secret ginseng paste. I hope they can take care of my disabled children and understand my painstaking efforts as a mother. Every time Tao Jun was brought back by me, he would tell me about his painful experience, his face was full of grievances and distress. When I heard my son's talk, in addition to being distressed, I always habitually took out the acupuncture box and gave him the acupuncture point on the root of his thigh, so that he would forget those unhappy things after a good night's sleep.
People often say, "Whatever you're afraid of, the result will come." Suddenly one day, my Tao Jun was arrested by the police! This time seems to be different than usual, the police handcuffed his son for the first time. I heard that a girl in the town was murdered, and the body was exposed in a place that the whole town could see. The police found a golf ball next to the body, with Tao Jun's name written on it. Omg! How could my son kill someone? how can that be? ! No, someone must have framed it. I don't believe my son would do such a cruel thing, never! ! Later in the ward, I saw my son. My silly son has confessed to the crime, but told me he didn't kill. Son, why do you have to admit the crime? The police must have beaten him to do this, it must be like this! No, I want to avenge my son, and I won't let people bully us casually. So, I invited a well-known barrister, hoping to let him fight this lawsuit.
It's a pity that it backfired. This lawyer is a greedy and lustful guy. He actually said that Tao Jun is a disabled person and won't be sentenced for many years! Hearing this, I understand that no one will take the initiative to help our mother and son who have suffered through hardships. They all want to kill my son. What a terrible human heart, what a cruel world! Son, my mother won't let you be bullied by others like this. I must find the real murderer for everyone to see. I want everyone to know that my son is innocent!
Where to start? correct! Zhentai hasn't been seen since my son was arrested, and he hasn't come to see his friends! I remember my son told me that once he and Zhentai were in a fight with a group of people on the golf course. Zhentai saw the golf ball picked up by his son and wrote his name on it. Only he knows about golf. It must be this guy who stole the ball and framed it for his son, that's right! It's a pity that I worked hard to find evidence later, but it proved that this matter has nothing to do with Zhentai, and the matter is stuck like this, what should I do? What can I do to save my son? At this time, Zhentai told me that it might be a love murder, it is better to investigate this dead girl and see what she was like before her death. Now I can only ask Zhentai to help me check it out.
Son's Confession:
That girl actually called me "idiot"! ? How dare she say that to me! No one can call me that, no one can bully me! I want you to pay the price, ah ah ah ah ah! ! ! Oops, why isn't she moving? What's up with her? Do you want to call mom? Forget it, call Zhentai. Oops, better call the hospital first. Call my mother, call Zhentai, call the hospital, call my mother, call Zhentai, call the hospital, call my mother, call Zhentai, call the hospital, give it. . . . . . . . . . Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! ! What's going on here, what's going on? TMD!! Let's go and see the girls first. Hello! Why is she lying still on the ground, get up! What happened just now? ! ! I really can't remember! No, I'm going to use "move my temples" to remind myself, move. . move. . too. . Positive. . hole. . . . Forget it, how pitiful this girl is, I'll put her in an obvious place and let the rest of the town come to her, I'm going back to sleep with my mother, that's all!
Huh? ? ? ? ? ? How did I get into the prison? What's going on here? They all say that I kill people, and it seems to be the real thing. I really don't have the impression that I have killed people, really not! My mother seemed to be very worried about me, and she even asked a lawyer to help me a while ago. My mother asked me to remember what happened that day. I really tried very hard to think about it, but I couldn’t remember it no matter how much I thought about it! Later, I used the trick "move the temples", but I still can't remember anything, it's really annoying! One day, I had an argument with one of the prisoners in the prison, and the guy actually called me an "idiot." I took a big shot and had a fight with him. In the process, my head was hit. It really hurts! But this time, I seemed to be much more awake, and suddenly remembered many things from the past. Oops, yes! Mom once killed me, she wants to kill me! Later, he used acupuncture to stab me hard, and it hurt so much! I hate my mother so much, I hate her for abandoning me, everything she usually does to me is false, she is really vicious and terrible! Wait a minute, except this thing seems. . . . besides! ? Ah, my head hurts! By the way, I remembered! On the night the girl was killed, I saw another person through the broken window! That's right, it's the old man! The old man must have killed the girl, it must be like this!
Mother's Confession:
Oh, the truth is finally coming to light, and the son finally remembers the murderer! I have seen this person, he is an old man who picks up rubbish, he must be lustful and kill this girl! It seems that I have to go to him myself and investigate the matter thoroughly. When I got to the old man, I tentatively asked him about the night of the crime. He said that the girl had already made an appointment with him for a sex trade. Later, Tao Jun followed and killed her with a stone. Then he pressed his temples with both hands inexplicably, and then dragged the body to the rooftop. Go up there!
impossible! ! ! ! My son can't be a murderer! ! ! ! He must have been mistaken, he must have read it wrong! ! ! ! I love my son. I have watched him grow up since I was a child. Although my son is stupid, he is a lovely and good boy. He cannot be a murderer, impossible! What? Is he going to call the police? Is he going to arrest my child? The police have re-investigated, but he has to push my son back into the abyss at this time? ! I can't let him do this! Tao Jun is my son! No one can take him away from me, and I will never allow anyone to tear us apart! Tao Jun still wants to eat the food I cook, sleep in my arms, and grow up under my love every moment. I won't let him call the police, I won't let him do this, I won't let him do this! I'm going to kill him and let him disappear from the world without mercy, so that no one knows the truth, okay.
what! I killed someone! I killed someone? I killed.
Let's just set fire to this place, it's gone.
Walking into a desolate meadow, I seemed to have no strength to move on. It wasn't too windy or cold, but I could feel the cold piercing my bone marrow. Looking at the slightly swaying withered grass, I suddenly felt a sense of being in it, as if I wanted to become a part of them, and let the wind play with no purpose. Isn't this a true portrayal of me? I've been playing with fate all the time, which makes me feel so absurd and ironic that I'm alive. Well, let's let your life that has been tense sway freely with the wind. At this moment, my mind went blank. The sound of hitting someone with a hammer just now seemed to keep reverberating. The blood on the dead person seemed to be sticking to my hand, and I couldn't rub it off. The guilt of this cruel, life-threatening suffocation made me feel like I was going to vomit. Like that person said, my son did kill someone, emotionally I don't believe it, but this is the cruel truth. I killed someone too? Killed for my son? So, did I kill for my son, or did I kill for myself? Is it for the future and freedom of my son, or is it just for my selfish possessiveness? Why was I so cruel at the time, is there no other way to solve it? If I had to do it all over again, would I still do it? Am I still going to smash that person's brain into the air without hesitation, so that he doesn't even have a chance to groan? But these are all just my own assumptions and fantasies. After all, what happened has already happened. My lovely son and I, our hands are both covered with the blood of innocents, and our hearts never seem to be simple and unsullied. Oh no, my son will forget, he forgot the instant it happened. Well, since a disabled son can do it, I, a mother, can do it too. I want to make our life return to peace. It's as peaceful as it was before. Nothing terrible can happen, nothing has happened.
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Later, I heard that the police finally caught the murderer of the girl. I heard that the man wanted to kill the girl because he loved her. I was full of curiosity and really wanted to see what this "murderer" was like. I was stunned when I saw him. He turned out to be a mentally handicapped child, and only after careful inquiry did he find out that his parents were long gone. My heart is broken, isn't this what I was worried about Tao Jun becoming? Without the love of relatives, the care of enthusiastic people, and the recognition of him by society, in the end, he can only be manipulated by others, framed by others, and finally let fate deal an unexpected blow to him. What despair and sadness this is! At this moment, it is really difficult for me to express the heartache of being a mother in my heart. I can only let my tears fall on my cheeks and send me a little, even vicious and shameful care for this poor child. .
Son's Confession:
Today I finally got my freedom, but unfortunately my mother didn't come to pick me up. Fortunately, Zhentai and his girlfriend came, which made me feel a long-lost warmth. On the way home, I saw the old man's house, which was burnt to ruins. I had suspected him before, thinking that he was the murderer who killed the girl, but the police told me later that he was not. An inexplicable feeling greeted my heart. Maybe it was a shame from a good person. I suddenly wanted to see the old man's former residence. Is it a belated mourning? Hehe, who knows what it is. So my friends and I walked into the ruins and looked around aimlessly. Huh? what is this? One thing in the ruins caught my attention. This thing really made me familiar, but why is it here? why? Finally, I decided to take it home and show it to the most important person in my life, and of course, more importantly: this thing belongs to her.
Mother's Confession:
Today is a good day, and a few friends made an appointment to take a bus to go out for an outing. Staying in the pharmacy every day to cut herbs is suffocating and suffocating. Tao Jun accompanied me to the station and bought me a lot of food, which really made me very happy, as if my precious son suddenly grew up and sensible!
Son
, that's right! That thing hasn't been shown to mom yet, just now.
Mother
My son took out my acupuncture box! I was horrified! The impression has been gone since then.
The son
is so strange, why didn't the mother speak when she saw her things? ? This feeling is like when I watched her poisoning her back then, her eyes were filled with inexplicable fear. What is she afraid of? Why is this thing in the dead old man's house?
Mother
, I am afraid to see the questioning eyes of my son, I am really afraid! I hoped that I could forget this terrible thing and start over, but my son ignorantly showed me the key to this memory. The moment I saw the key, I knew that the horrible memory full of sin was back, and this time it was destined to never be closed. I want to run away, run away from my son's sight, run far away, but where can I run away? No matter how far away the world is, this nail stained with other people's blood has been nailed deeply into my heart.
There is cheerful music in the car, and friends are dancing to the music. Look how happy they are! As for me, this happiness seems to have gone away from me and can never be found again. I could only helplessly lower my head, staring at the acupuncture box my son found for me, falling into a sluggish state. Suddenly, I seem to remember something, right! If there is a way to make my son forget the terrible and painful memories, why not make me forget the same way? This way I will get back to the life I want! That's great, then come on, it's that acupuncture point, plunge into it hard, and then forget it all. I believe that I will forget.
End note:
When Tao Jun looked at his mother who had left in a hurry through the window, he seemed to remember an important thing, and then he seemed to be talking to himself in a low voice: Mom, thank you for everything you did for me.
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