Your music is far from my time, I just simply miss you

Dolores 2022-04-21 09:02:43

I have always been obsessed with "Control", not because I like Joy Division, Ian died too early, and their music is far from my era. The real reason was seeing a poster for Control in a movie or a music magazine. That melancholy and quiet face made me unable to stop learning about his life and his music.

The colors of the film are only black and white. In the monotonous colors, I recall the simple and beautiful time that Ian misses, about the lover and about Joy Division. The pure black and white make the film immersed in a strong nostalgic atmosphere, pure and clean. The film critic said that the director just narrated the story flatly, but I don't think there is anything wrong with this. Ian is also just an ordinary person with a legend, there is no need to deify him. Because in the hearts of those who like him, he is God, and we would rather see his normal, self-conscious side.

The first Joy Division song I listened to was Love Will Tear Us Apart. When the melody of this song played in the movie, a warm and soft familiarity enveloped me. That's what Joy Division gives me different from other post-punk bands. What I feel in their music is warmth in the dark and a sensitive and stubborn heart. Maybe it's a long time ago, and Ian's music has more of a sense of history, the wonderful punk of the 70s.

It's awe-inspiring to watch Ian sing to his heart's content and watch his trademark neurotic moves. To be honest, the action is ugly to death, but the devotion and intoxication revealed in each action is so fascinating.

The talent he was born with was destined to be flawed, or he was destined to die young. For a long time, I have been tiring and devoted myself to the performance, but I have always been asked for more; the wandering and wandering between two relationships, and the chaotic emotional entanglement between two women; my own more and more serious epilepsy, finally Overwhelmed Ian and ended his life on a sunny morning. However, Ian can still be remembered by our generations as Lou Reed.

Those actions made me think of myself when he was still in school. Rock star posters, rock magazines, can't hear enough rock every day, like to draw eyeliner and look obsessed when listening to rock. Such a familiar yet unfamiliar feeling...

After watching the movie, I suddenly felt a sense of happiness and satisfaction. Because Brett is still alive and well, because Brett continues to create. Although Suede is no longer there, although that man will never be as coquettish as before.

When regret and heartache reappeared in my heart with the black and white pictures in the film, tears fell and the pain was unbearable, for Ian who left at the age of 23, and for the beauty that passed away, the beauty that once bloomed in England...

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Control quotes

  • Ian Curtis: I don't want to be in the band anymore. Unknown Pleasures was it. I was happy. I never meant for it to grow like this. When I'm up there, singing they don't understand how much I give and how it affects me. Now they want more. They expect me to give more. And I don't know if I can. It's like it's not happening to me, but... someone pretending to be me, someone dressed in my skin. Now we're going to America. I have no control anymore. I don't know what to do.

  • Ian Curtis: I struggle between what I know is right in my own mind, and some warped truthfulness as seen through other people's eyes who have no heart, and can't see the difference anyway.

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