When I watch a movie with my sister, I usually don't cry too hard. Maybe it's because of my serious image. When I watch it, I just cry silently, but I really don't stop crying.
1. My five tears
The first time I shed tears, in fact, was very late. It was the scene before Kate and her boyfriend went to the dance. Kate has a boyfriend, and she has a shimmer of light that fuels her enthusiasm for life. The two warm each other with their sickly bodies. This love that dares not exert force has also allowed Kate to taste another kind of beauty in life. As Kate walked down the stairs, her eyes were full of hope and joy, her steps were graceful, and the words that should have been appropriate for this 15-year-old girl were returning to her at this special moment. Life has brought so much pain and depression to her, but at this moment, I know she is enjoying that moment of lightness. Love, no matter whose turn it is, is a magical elixir.
Kate walked to his father. At this moment, there couldn't be more warmth in this father's eyes. A child who is desperately trying to seize the beauty of life, and a seedling who has suffered from a serious illness since childhood, how he doesn't want her to have only this fleeting elegance and beauty, but at this moment, he is just enjoying, savoring, savoring This daughter has a beauty that is rare in her life, and will hardly appear again in the future. All his blessings, hope and love are in his eyes.
The second time I shed tears, I saw Sara diligently reviewing the precedents and legal provisions of the judgment, determined to win the case in court and win back the hope of survival for the eldest daughter. Seeing her working hard, I wept silently again. I am not working hard because of her hard work, but I feel that one day she will regret spending time and energy on this cumbersome official document. Kate's life is already a handful of sand that can't be kept. As a hardworking and even desperate mother, she will regret that she didn't spend more time with her daughter. However, this may also be her last escape from this heavy proposition.
She is angry, she has a strong desire to control, and she controls all the resources in the family to fight for the fate of the eldest daughter. In all these processes and all her struggles, she has a firm belief that she will succeed. When everyone began to doubt the necessity of doing so, and when the voices of support around her became increasingly sparse, she was still insisting. In fact, who knows if she has been shaken? How many times, when we are faced with an almost impossible thing, do we not fight with the concept of "but we are worthy of our heart"? Maybe, she has given up, just because she was afraid that she would raise her eyes and let the tears be seen, so she buried her head in the book; just because she was afraid that once she stopped, she would have to accept the cruel truth like everyone else, so she built a new one in her heart. There is a fortress, even at the risk of quarreling fiercely with her second daughter and her husband. The most bitter tears need the hottest peppers to cover up.
The third time I cried was Kate's last holiday by the sea. Life is so beautiful, and she was so satisfied just as a bystander who should have been playing on the beach. When she was snuggling into my father's arms, I cried, I was so afraid that this day would pass, I was afraid that the strong mother would miss this last good time, I was afraid that she would leave everyone silently before saying goodbye to her family. Life is so short, and it is only at the end that it will be especially cherished. But the twilight old man can love and hate in the long river of life, and then feel it, and then look back to pay back. It is really cruel for this young girl to endure this with her teenage mind.
If there is only one day left to live, what can you and I do? If it were a sudden announcement, perhaps we would spend most of the day in grief, shock, fear, and finally spend the rest of the day trying desperately to achieve things that may never be done. Compared with such a choice, it is no easy task for a little girl to come up with this simple dream and face death. There are so many things that she has not done that can only be satisfied with a seaside vacation. She has gradually accepted the reality that there are not many days to come in the torment day after day. This is an even crueler layer.
The fourth time I shed tears, it happened during the court hearing. For a long time, I always felt that the 11-year-old Anna really chose to go to court with her parents because she was tortured unbearably by many "dedication" operations, but when the final mystery was revealed, I was really swayed by them (Anna and the others). Jessie, who doesn't have a lot of roles, was touched by the deepest guardian. Jessie is not well cared for by her parents because of her sister, and she is even sent to a special school. Anna is subjected to surgery (physical pain and mental fear) that is not suitable for her age again and again. The existence of her sister gives Their lives have caused many, many influences, as far as they are concerned, most of them are negative, but they are still accompanying her along the way, caring for her, and even "opposing" their parents against the pressure of public opinion at a young age , carrying the "selfish" black cauldron, all of which stems from the fact that their protection of their sister is at the highest level - to love you is to let go. They don't know about autonomy or the nature of life. Maybe they just want to fulfill every wish of their sister, so that she can calmly face the decline of vitality, rather than continue to endure pain and suffering.
Jessie tore up his portrait of Kate with her own hands, and let it fly in the air, saying her final goodbyes in her own way, while Anna, the youngest sister, loudly stopped her sister's secret from leaking. How many misunderstandings and even scolding, how much pressure, she is willing to bear, compared to the mother, their guardian also has a different kind of power. I live for you, I can't choose; I live for you (of course it should not be to this extent), but I am willing; I let you go, no matter what the price I will pay. Seeing little Anna cleaning up the filth of incontinence for Kate, seeing her in so much pain watching Kate resolutely bid farewell to the world, she felt her protection and sacrifice were very precious.
The fifth time I cried was the night Kate left. When the mother finally accepted the fact that her daughter was about to lose her life, she really gave up the fight, and her expression was soft, which should be considered weak. Being a mother is hard. The mother of this terminally ill child has worked harder and stronger than any mother who thought she was in the past few years, but she saw with her own eyes that the city wall she was guarding was about to collapse, and she was tortured by her illness. Her daughter was leaving her, and her grief erupted suddenly under her strong appearance. This kind of pain of "trying your best but not being able to do it" is the most real expression in the face of birth, old age, sickness and death. Together with Kate, she read the traces of Kate left in the world. Looking at Kate was not beautiful enough, but it was enough to make her remember her life. At this time, the mother was lying in her daughter's arms and began to accept the passing of life with her daughter. During the process, her daughter was comforting her and guarding her with the last bit of life force. Seeing this, she burst into tears again.
2. Two kinds of visualizations
When watching this film, I invested in the feeling of companionship, because the original theme of family love was my death point, and another reason was that the diseases, drug names and symptoms deeply touched my heart. . So, let's divide our feelings into two levels.
First, as an ordinary moviegoer, I applaud every character created in the movie.
A mother who looks extremely strong and even tough, her existence interprets the mother's desire to protect her children, and also makes me re-understand the sentence that mother's love is selfish. In order to save the family and the life of her eldest daughter, she sacrificed to the last moment. Such a mother is actually just an ordinary mother, because I believe that any mother in the world will not do anything after encountering such bad luck. inferior to her.
Dad's love is deep and restrained. His obedience to his wife and satisfaction to his daughter are the most extravagant pets. He also did everything he could, but the man's rationality gave him an open-minded understanding of life. For Kate, what about having a perfect holiday today, even if we're going to be separated tomorrow? Thanks to his courage, he left his family with a most precious memory. After his daughter left, he also left his love to more children and devoted himself to public welfare. The deepest love of a man is here.
Anna is actually the clue to the whole show, and the youngest but most transparent person. It can't be said that everything she does is the result of careful consideration, but her decisions are no different from a sensible adult. This kind of coincidence can also be said to be not accidental. The so-called cleverness is so clever. Everything she does is just because she remembers one thing - she is the guardian of her sister, and she will protect her whenever she encounters any problems. With her sick and weak sister, such a concept of family love has become a trait of her, and it will not be easily changed. With such a spiritual quality, Anna is not only moved, but also admired.
Kate is the center of the whole movie and the saddest person. Her life has been hit hard, and the serious illness seems to have drawn a net of isolation between her and ordinary people. When she hoped to choose to leave safely, she found that too heavy love had created a new obstacle. In desperation, she chose to give up treatment indirectly through her sister's lawsuit. How to look at her life? Although it is full of taboos and crises, she has been cared for and loved by so many people. Although it is short-lived, it seems to have given her enough time to understand the meaning of it (otherwise she would not choose to give up). Love is a luxury. She is very lucky. Some people do not complain about her illness because they meet her. Some people light up her difficult time, but their bodies are too fragile. But their love will last forever in some parallel space. True love is all about accepting each other. Seeing that boy calmly patted her on the back and coped with the vomiting caused by chemotherapy, kissed her bald head, and cherished her fragility, I really felt that despite the hardships, luck had favored her. She is very open-minded, willing to leave the best time in the world, and not willing to face the painful treatment of dying. Although this open-mindedness is the result of the tempering of fate, she can enjoy the beauty of life, know how to give up, and be rational at such a young age. The choice is really sad.
The United States is a country that advocates human rights. In such an environment, it can discover the true nature of people, and show the authenticity and value of family love. This story itself is a shining existence.
Second, I want to write down some random thoughts about being a patient. Cyclophosphamide, platelets, what a familiar word, Kate's face full of purpura, what a terrifying sight, for me, besides being touched, there is a feeling of sadness of a dead rabbit and a fox.
I should be thankful that I met true love at the right age, and took great risks to get the angel that God gave me, and my life has been extended in a sense since then, even if one day I will When leaving, the family will find a trace of comfort in the face of the little angel. Of course, I am no longer young, and I also put the sense of responsibility that a person of this age should have on my shoulders. I will do my best to accompany him to watch every sunset and accompany the baby to experience every important moment in life.
I should have told myself that if I, too, faced Kate's decision, I would prepare myself in a sensible and decent way and convince my family to accept it. Life is not easy. If one person's struggle will lead to over-accommodation of several people and destroy their lives, then I will choose to let go. Asking everyone to downplay their grief and start over is more acceptable to me than holding on to it.
Nonsense, don't want to think too deeply, that's all. The coolness passed, the arms of my lover and the childish words of my child gave me enough warmth. Life has reached such a perfect state under the premise of imperfection. Apart from cherishing it, what else should I remember? Let it pass, cherish it, and write down every bit of happiness that shines with my humble notes.
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