You pretended to love me, and I thank you humbly. I exchanged gold for your reluctant kiss. I thought this love would last forever. It's dead now! Where did your magical powers go before? Once upon a time when you showed a smile, you could make the sky bright and radiant, and you could make a sunny summer cloudy with just one word. Exhaustion, not life and death, is the bitterness of love. My passions are exhausted like a river roasted by the sun I look at my empty heart, huddled in discouragement My soul is like a desert on which the silent, wild and wild wind rages and the birds of the night build their nests in From the king's tomb I look upon you with sorrow, repenting of my pain, my ecstasy, my grief, my bliss. -- Somerset Maugham likes three types of movies: drama, biography, same-sex plus cult. The most afraid of watching is horror, there will be shadows when you see it, and you won't dare to go to the bathroom at night. "Brokeback Mountain" was my favorite movie Top 3 before, "Adele's Story", "I Love You Morris" and so on. One of my favorite poems: WHAuden's Funeral Blues, also for dead gay lovers, also appeared in the movie Four Weddings and a Funeral. The earliest impression of same-sex love was in high school. Is this an enlightenment? There is a very eye-catching couple in the school, two girls, one girl with short hair in a suit, completely dressed as a boy but not handsome, at least not in line with my aesthetic, T? The other girl is ordinary, not pretty at all, P? The two are inseparable and obviously very close. They have become a small kingdom and don't care about the outside world. "He" takes special care of her. He helps her wash dishes when she eats in the restaurant. She is very well-behaved. There will be some gossip at school, and sometimes people will make fun of it, but I never have. However, maybe everyone in high school is focused on their studies, and they don't feel discrimination, but they still feel different. University later. At that time, there were 3 classes in our school of foreign languages, and sometimes 2 classes shared a classroom, and there were quite a lot of people. As a foreign language, it is naturally the world of beautiful and outstanding girls with different personalities. A few boys, also known as crooked melons and cracked dates, are "in name only" and can almost be ignored. Many science and engineering colleges are gay, What about the School of Foreign Languages? What I find appealing to me is talent. The boy I liked in high school, the vicissitudes of life and decadent temperament, the ancient and warm-hearted chivalrous brother Fan Er. Singing, dancing, painting, literature, and English are all good. When I saw her for the first time in my freshman year, I didn't pay attention to her, and it was not conspicuous at all. Tall and thin, with long hands and long feet, she is a loner, and doesn't talk much. She sits in the first row and sees her back. I don’t know which day, I can’t remember the process, just like Humbert in “Lolita” who found out the uniqueness of Lolita, there was a chemical change, and he was attracted by something in her. , that is a unique inner light, she may be completely ordinary and inconspicuous to others, but in your eyes it exudes a dazzling halo, so you only see her and no one else. The details that I remember are: she likes comics, like "The Sky is the Bank of the Red River" and "The Daughter of the Nile". And Rumiko Takahashi is not Nanako Matsushima's "Ranma 1/2", etc., or she turns into a girl in cold water and becomes a boy in hot water, and her father turns into a panda in cold water? Well, it's really childish. The shop is her favorite place to go; she likes to imitate the movements of fencing, every move is prudent, and she is quite handsome, by the way, she looks a bit like Tang Wei when she was young, with clear eyes, bright eyes and white teeth, between the eyebrows. She is heroic, cold and melancholy when she is not smiling, but bright and sweet when she smiles; she likes French novels such as "The Three Musketeers", "Queen Margo", "The Count of Monte Cristo" and "Twenty Years Later". Her eyes are bright, her eyes are full of passion, she is very focused when reading books, she really likes it; she likes "Gone with the Wind" and "Sissi", and has watched them N times, often referring to Scarlett Bradley Ashe Li Melanie and the Austrian prince hang on her lips; she sings moonriver with full vowels, very nice, and perfect lips; she likes the musical "Cat", and often sings the memory, with a bright tone; she can also dance and dance Not charming but handsome. Even in the drama, she played the prince. The 50th anniversary of the school, the bonfire party, everyone had a good time, we played the prince and princess, she probably drank a little wine, her face was red, her eyes were blurred, and her beautiful lips were a little tempting, making people want to kiss. impulse. One day when she came home from school, my "class grass" and my classmates were waiting for her on the playground. Just like Eason Chan's "People Come and Go", "Close your eyes, who do you miss the most? I placed unrealistic hopes and fantasies beyond reality, and I was full of enthusiasm, but the result could only be disillusionment and brokenness. I can't even say a basic understanding of her, and she probably knows me too. There is still a huge gap that cannot be bridged between us. I am on this shore and she is on that shore. Slowly, the sun also disappeared, the dream world disappeared, and reality returned. At that time, I accidentally saw Anton's "Love of Burning Heart" in a bookstore, and wrote some of my feelings. Once, a long time later, she was almost forgotten. Passing by the train station with a few friends, I suddenly saw her from a distance, far away on the other side of the square, alone, just like she used to be when I liked her, immersed in her own world and not paying attention to the outside world, low The head, still tall and thin, walked proudly and quickly, far away, without saying hello, and she didn't see me, that was the last time I saw her. Recalling the end of "Lover on Fire", Steve's life collapsed and he couldn't rebuild his isolation. It was a disillusionment. Is that what Juliet Binoche's Anna looks like when she leaves silently? Since her, I have never liked a girl again, and I have never met a girl as handsome as her, and I have also become a fan of Kristen Stewart, who has changed from long hair to short hair. I don't know where in the world she is now, whether she has changed her life for the sake of life. I don't know if she still reads, sings, dances, whether she still likes "Ranma", or whether she still gets married, has children, or buys a house. Ang Lee said: Everyone has a Brokeback Mountain in their hearts. It's not that I like the same sex, I just happen to like you of the same gender. It's just a trait that you like, no matter which gender it's in. Now, I like him. Stewart Road turns powder. I don't know where in the world she is now, whether she has changed her life for the sake of life. I don't know if she still reads, sings, dances, whether she still likes "Ranma", or whether she still gets married, has children, or buys a house. Ang Lee said: Everyone has a Brokeback Mountain in their hearts. It's not that I like the same sex, I just happen to like you of the same gender. It's just a trait that you like, no matter which gender it's in. Now, I like him. Stewart Road turns powder. I don't know where in the world she is now, whether she has changed her life for the sake of life. I don't know if she still reads, sings, dances, whether she still likes "Ranma", or whether she still gets married, has children, or buys a house. Ang Lee said: Everyone has a Brokeback Mountain in their hearts. It's not that I like the same sex, I just happen to like you of the same gender. It's just a trait that you like, no matter which gender it's in. Now, I like him. Stewart Road turns powder. I don't know where in the world she is now, whether she has changed her life for the sake of life. I don't know if she still reads, sings, dances, whether she still likes "Ranma", or whether she still gets married, has children, or buys a house. Ang Lee said: Everyone has a Brokeback Mountain in their hearts. It's not that I like the same sex, I just happen to like you of the same gender. It's just a trait that you like, no matter which gender it's in. Now, I like him. Stewart Road turns powder. I don't know where in the world she is now, whether she has changed her life for the sake of life. I don't know if she still reads, sings, dances, whether she still likes "Ranma", or whether she still gets married, has children, or buys a house. Ang Lee said: Everyone has a Brokeback Mountain in their hearts. It's not that I like the same sex, I just happen to like you of the same gender. It's just a trait that you like, no matter which gender it's in. Now, I like him.
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