You don't understand the life I choose

Destin 2022-04-21 09:01:50

Chongqing finally began to be sultry. Since the study room did not get direct sunlight, it was always in a cool state, so I could clearly feel the heat coming from the opposite bedroom, like an undercurrent. My mood became irritable and I couldn't watch any new movies, so I clicked on the movie "the hours" again.

Yi
Woolf, I read her article "Spots on the Wall" when I was in high school, but I knew the term stream of consciousness in junior high school. What exactly does the word mean, until I came into contact with this woman later. The psychologist William James said: "Consciousness is not a piece of connection, but a constant flow. It is most natural to express it in the metaphor of a 'river' or a 'flowing water'. After that, we will talk about it. When you start it, call it stream of thought, stream of consciousness, or stream of subjective life."

So it's not surprising that Woolf would choose suicide to end his life in the end. If a person's self-consciousness is too strong, It is difficult for such a person to find a suitable way to survive in this world beyond the feeling of the things around him. She indulges in her own words, and her trance is the manifestation of her escape from prison in real life. She talks with her husband in the morning, thinks about her novel, talks with her sister, and is also thinking about her own novel, and the fate of the protagonist of her novel is also followed at any time. Her mood changed.

In fact, Woolf tried to have a connection with this world, but whenever I saw her trance-like appearance on the screen, I felt that this woman did not belong to this world, she lived in her works, and this kind of life is Great, but equally terrible. Leonard, her lover, tried so hard to bring her out of that emotion, but she still failed. You must know that there are always some people in this world. No matter how much you love her and how hard you work for her, she is still not yours. But she also doesn't belong to anyone.

You blame me for not knowing how to live in the world, but you do not understand the importance of the spiritual world to me. At the train station, Woolf said to Leonard that if I had to choose between Richmond and death, I would choose death. There are many things in this film that I can't understand, but I began to believe that some people are not born in this world, they come only to find, to find spiritual and spiritual satisfaction, and for the body and life, they They can give up at any time, and those have no regrets for them.

Leonard was great and Woolf was lucky at the same time. A neurotic, paranoid, self-conscious, selfish woman who always lives in her own world, a man who knows how to give in, know how to respect, and tolerate, perhaps Leonard has these qualities to adapt to this woman, if there is no such woman, his love How can it be so great. Like the attributes of the spiritual world, their love still does not exist in this world. The relationship between them does not exist in the question of whether it will deteriorate due to time, but how do I use my love to bring you back to this world. Leonard knew how to respect Woolf, and perhaps it was because of this indulgent love that she came to the brink of darkness.

She told him that it was impossible to escape from life to get peace, so he had to admit it, and one day he would lose her.

Seeing that her sister got married and had children and lived happily, some people said that Woolf was envious, otherwise she would not shed tears when her sister left in the end. And I think her tears are not because of envy, but because of her inner powerlessness. She has clearly understood that her distance from such a life is not a matter of distance, but a problem that will never exist. It reminds me of Sue, maybe she's not as extreme as Woolf, but she gives me the feeling that I still don't belong in this world.

The image of Woolf laying her face next to the dead bird, with sadness in her eyes, I don't know what she was thinking, but at that moment, I was in tears. How empty and lonely life is, only after you die can you see its desolation and desolation, and when you are alive, you will never know, so you are still chasing those funny things.

There is indeed a big difference between the pursuit of spiritual life and the pursuit of material life. In the "School of Foreign Affairs", Yan Jian thought of candles when he was dying. But Woolf said to her husband: always to look life in the face, and to know it for what it is. at last, to love it for what it is, and then to put it away.

II
I never understood Julianne Moore's character, but that character is my favorite character in the whole movie. I understand her sense of non-existence in this world. Like Woolf, I thought she would also choose to commit suicide, but she chose to survive in the end. I wonder how she managed to live for decades in a world without a sense of existence. She blames herself, but I know very well that sometimes some of people's self-blame is empty and false, and back to that day, she would still choose to leave. What kind of person is destined to take what kind of behavior.

I don't know if the director is trying to express two life choices of the same character, one chooses death and the other chooses life. The movie doesn't give us the right answer at the end, and there really isn't any right answer.

I guess some people will blame them for their selfishness and talk about their parents and their family. I just want to say, a person, she has been so sick in real life from beginning to end, how can you bear to let a patient cover his own body Wounds, to care for another person. If you don't even have a sense of existence yourself, how can you still have the strength to feel the existence of other things. It's not that they didn't work hard, but that God gave them one more thing and one less thing when he created them.

So to sum up, a good family, a good marriage, good children, and a prosperous life are not worth a little spiritual prosperity. Of course, this is only for those who exist in the spiritual world.

The more I talk about it, the more I am afraid of the word spiritual world, which is like a kind of magic spell. But in this pale society, how can you allow your spiritual world to be empty along with this world? At the same time, I don't think there is anything vulgar in people who pursue material life. They each have their own personalities and choose their own lives.

You don't understand the life I choose, it doesn't matter, people like me never need anyone to understand. In fact, I don't know the life I choose, I just know that it's right to follow my heart.

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The Hours quotes

  • Richard Brown: Oh, Mrs. Dalloway... Always giving parties to cover the silence.

  • Laura Brown: Obviously, you... feel unworthy. Gives you feelings of unworthiness. You survive and they don't.