Waking up from a nightmare in the middle of the night, what is the fear.
Monster can come from the heart, it can be malicious harm from others, it can be the rules of an indifferent society, but it is definitely not Aileen with flesh and blood.
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When Selby's hand caressed her face and said beautiful, something must have melted in Aileen's heart, as if the original black and white picture began to smudge from the middle.
Love is so magical sometimes, there is no trace of it until it happens, who would have thought that the person you avoided at first in the gay bar who wanted to drink a beer when committing suicide would give you a life-changing experience that night the beginning of. Do you really fall in love with Selby, it's just the feeling of yes it is. When you were young, the middle school fantasy was not obtained again and again in the process of growing up. You thought that you would no longer have the ability to fantasize and dream. Until this moment, what is love? Know each other, there is no other in the world except each other. Who can understand you like this? Why should Aileen shoulder these things? She has longed for love, beauty, and recognition of her own beauty since she was a child, but Selby, with a low eyebrow and a warm smile, took the initiative to approach Aileen to give praise and recognition , so that Aileen who has finished washing in the public toilet can be confident and extraordinary - you are beautiful. What more reason is needed? It turned out that she didn't need to lift her shirt or be spoiled by scumbags, this girl could give her what she wanted and know herself, so later Aileen was in the rented house, driving the car that she just killed and took away, facing the Selby, who looked unhappy, said that everything I wanted was here.
When she tried to live the life of an ordinary person - a house, a car, a steady job. But since she was a child, she was destined to be someone who could not do any mainstream work. In any ordinary person, including doctors and lawyers who Aileen herself thinks, ignorance makes her think that as long as she works hard, she can get on the right track, but Selby clearly knows that just like her I mean, you must have at least a degree. Does Aileen really not know? Perhaps vaguely, but in order to fulfill their promise, doing this is only to show that I Tried. Then he lowered his requirements to find a job, even lowered his posture, revealed his thoughts and tried to negotiate with people, but obviously the unreasonableness of the lady showed that the society is too accustomed to labeling anyone and throwing them away by category, indifferent and numb, You have no idea what happened to the person on the other side, but people don't care about each other at all, and you are alone any time. The appearance of the policeman, Aileen who was trying to get close to normal, was just scratching the claws of his past life to tell you that this is your life.
Everywhere at work hits walls, murders escape, the police have no clues, and the balance is swaying. Even when I got home, Selby was just crying for herself, she said I was starving and what were you doing Aileen, she said my cast my arm Aileen you didn't care about me. Why don't you be a prostitute, we have no money.
Yeah? But I really don't want to be like that. Don't you want to live an ordinary life and want a better future? But there is no way, I will try again.
Is this really the one who understands you, Aileen, and later crashed the red car. When Aileen was afraid of being exposed and took her to escape, she was so reluctant to say that I was going to drive; Aileen came back so abnormally flustered after killing the police, but Selby was only concerned that they couldn't move out without a car. When people are scared, they instinctively want to hide in a safe place. Aileen is the same, but you use Aileen's love to push her out. The last shot is so dramatic that Aileen regrets it from the time the old man speaks. Now, such a warm and kind old man, stop and stay away from me, but the gun is seen, will you call the police? I hope you don't call the police, but how could you not call the police even if you're a good guy, I can't drag Selby into the water, I've killed the police and will be found soon, I need this car, Selby's still waiting for me-- - Ouch. With a roar, this is Aileen's real realization that she is killing, because if you have a good reason and hatred, the subconscious will hypnotize itself and recognize what you have done, so when she killed the man for the second time, she did not Afraid that there is no regret or even pleasure, because what the man did overlapped with the first thug, the fear of getting her close to death and the extreme disgust for such scum.
Aileen's expression is vivid, slightly shy when she smiles, shaking her head is a manifestation of glamour, being rude means not showing weakness and unyielding, the stronger the heart, the softer it is. The heart will be crushed and ravaged again and again, until it is hard enough to be used to arming yourself at any time. She wouldn't kill the man who submissively said that she was the first to hire a prostitute. The best explanation for her soft-heartedness is to tell herself that God and I are on one side. Those killed are all scum, how can you Did not God send me to kill them? You see, I don't kill people indiscriminately, so don't be afraid of all this, we have principles, okay?
Will Selby understand what he said? The one who asks you the principle of being a chicken is ignorant, and has long succumbed to the elders' discipline. From the beginning, all she wants is to find someone to chat and seek warmth, fall into her own delusions to seek stimulation, escape with you but have no money, what will she understand? Live an ordinary life and work hard together? All she wants is that you go to make money for a beach villa and ask aloud Where is our party? Life is a Party. It's just that you can't understand, just like on the phone, what she wants is just an ordinary life, maybe it's not that she doesn't love, she just can't bear it, all I want is to be with you, I didn't ask you to do so much Many, not ready to fall into this swamp together. Yes, not ready, Selby was not in the same rhythm with Aileen from beginning to end, even if Aileen made money, got a car, and took her to move to another house, she only seemed to keep up when things were a little better. Rhythm, and then, Aileen told her the truth and she didn't necessarily agree. In the last part where the two were leaning against the wall, Aileen was so helpless that he could only hysterically. Although they were leaning side by side, they were so far apart. Why do this happen. After killing such a kind old man, Aileen thought that at least the only excuse for killing him was for the safety of herself and Selby, but when she got home, she found that the whole world knew that they were the murderers, so when she fired that shot, I have really become a murderer. This is the fear of myself. A person who has good expectations for himself finds that he has become a terrible monster. The only light is love, the self in the eyes of the lover , it should still be beautiful, the belief from beginning to end is so precious you, you who are with me, so she wants her to come back, she wants her to call her, she wants her to remember.
In the last phone call, one end was full of love, as if holding on to the last glimmer of hope; the other end was making the last camouflage, as if eager to wipe away the last smear of dirt; halfway through the conversation, Aileen had already understood, so she He hesitated, trying to remind the other party of the agreement, trying to prove whether the lover was still there, she also knew that she was deceiving herself, so she quickly decided to give up and admitted her crime on the phone, since you have no intention, why should I be here Hold on to this love and set you free. I chose to endure so much by myself, and the people who knew me were not here.
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