I don't want to watch you live so disheartenedly

Karlee 2021-12-18 08:01:03

The cruelest thing I can think of is to see you alive and frustrated, my beloved relative and lover.
Twenty-one years have passed, and I have never met a good love, but I always believe that a person will definitely meet the dull but tender love that will stay with him for a lifetime. Because I saw it with my own eyes. Not only on the big screen, but on the 17-inch monitor, I saw it really.
In 2004, my grandma was diagnosed with uremia. During the five years from her illness to her death, the whole family seemed to be cast a thin shadow, especially for her grandfather. But in these long days with almost no plot, grandpa just stood by her side, itching, bathing, wiping his back, and cooking for him. Although my mother went back to help when she had time, and the three times a week for dialysis, she took her grandma with her, but the grandfather took care of all the little things in her daily life, day after day, for five years.
On the day of grandma's death, his nearly 80-year-old grandfather kept the incense and spiritual position all night, and he was unwilling to close his eyes if anyone tried to persuade him. In the early morning of the next day, my mother and elder brother moved their spiritual positions away, and grandpa bowed three times to grandma's portrait with tears in his eyes. Later, in order to ease the mood, my mother took the family to Sanya to travel and relax. While blowing the wind on the beach of Yalong Bay, my grandfather suddenly said that he wanted to put on a Kongming lantern. When the light was put on, I saw my grandfather's wish written on Kong Mingdeng, "I hope my wife will live a good life in heaven", and then I secretly ran to the side to wipe away my tears.
In the last week of March, when I watched sadly as the newly reared daisies withered, I also received the news of my grandfather's death. I have always felt that two people who love each other too much can't bear the barriers and misses of life and death, so they passed away shortly after each other. Otherwise, how could a grandpa in such a good health suddenly find out that he has liver cancer.
In the last moment of grandpa, my mother chose to give up treatment. The reason is that it is better to relieve him than to watch his family live so painfully. None of us have the right to decide a person’s life or death, but I understand my mother’s choice, just as I understand the grandfather’s approach in "Amour". Those children who say that grandpa is a murderer probably haven't experienced the pain of seeing a family life better than death.
Sadness that is not sensational is so sad. The quiet and cruel scene with almost no background sound reminds me of "Nobody Knows." Life is so difficult, even more difficult than movies. Sometimes it is simply a torment without plot, it is a whine without a melody. The cruelty makes people sorrow without tears. It is definitely not as sensational as in "1942". It needs to be accompanied by an orchestra to create a sorrowful cushion of sorrow. Human-like.
Pigeon. painting. Piano piece. And those silent pictures. Tangible and intangible, everything is a huge impact and imagery.
So, I love you too much, I don't want to watch you live in despair. If you feel that your dignity has been taken away by illness and life is so painful, I hope you can be well in heaven.

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Amour quotes

  • Anne: You are a monster sometimes.

  • Anne: What would you say if no one came to your funeral?

    Georges: Nothing, presumably.

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