You used to wrap yourself in fairy tales like a blanket. But it was the cold you loved.
You are used to immersing yourself in fairy tales as a sanctuary. But what you love is the cold
Sharp shivers as you uncovered the corpses of Bluebeard's wives.
Tremble with fear when you find the body of the wife of the cruel husband
Sweeter goose bumps as Prince Charming slid one glass slipper over your little toes, a perfect fit.
When Prince Charming puts on your crystal slippers and the shoes fit very well, you are so happy
But by the schoolyard, real princesses floated by you on fall winds.
But on campus, the real princess floats around you with the autumn wind
You saw the gulf between you and the rich girls, and vowed to stop believing in fairy tales.
You saw the gulf between yourself and the rich girl and swore to stop believing in fairy tales
But the stories were in you, deep as poison.
But the story is buried deep in my heart like a poison
If Prince Charming was real, if he could save you, you needed to be saved from the unfairness of everything.
If Prince Charming really exists, if he can save you, you need to be saved from all injustice
When would he come? The answer was a cruel shrug in a hundred fleeting moments.
When is he coming? The answer is countless moments of cruel shrugs
The sneer on Stevie Smith's face when he called you a fat cow.
It's the sneer on Steve Smith's face when he calls you fat man
Uncle Jeff's hand squeezing your ass in the Thanksgiving kitchen.
It's in the Thanksgiving kitchen, Uncle Jeff's molestation on you
The accusation in your father's eyes when you told him what happened.
It's the accusation in your father's eyes when you tell the truth
From every boy masquerading as a man that you let into your body, your heart,
From every boy you've made out, loved, and pretended to be a man
you learned you didn't have whatever magic turns a beast into a prince.
You finally understand that no magic can turn a beast into a prince
You surrounded yourself with the girls you'd always resented. Hoping to share their power, and you hated yourself.
You let yourself be surrounded by girls who you hate, wanting to share their power, and you hate yourself
And that diminshed you even more.
That makes you weak, even vulnerable
And then, right when you thought you might just disappear, he saw you.
Then, when you feel like you're about to disappear, he notices you
And you knew, somewhere deep, it was too good to be true.
You know deep down that everything is too perfect to be true
But you let yourself be swept, because he was the first strong enought to lift you.
But you let yourself sink in because he was the first to give you hope
Now, in his castle, you understand.
In his castle you find the truth
Prince Charming and Bluebeard are the same man.
Prince Charming and cruel husband are the same person
And you don't get a happy end unless you love both of him.
You can't have a happy ending unless you love both
Didn't you want this? To be loved?
Isn't that what you want? to be loved?
Didn't you want him to crown you?Didn't you ask for it?Didn't you ask for it?Didn't you ask for it?
Don't you want him to wear a crown for you? Isn't that what you want? Isn't that what you want? Isn't that what you want?
So say you can live like this.
So tell yourself you can live like this
Say you love him, say thank you.
Say you love him, say how grateful you are
Say anything but the truth.
Nothing but the truth
What if you can't love him back?
What if you can't give equal love?
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