If loneliness is light and dust, then this director is the one who can catch light and dust.
The film started with Hoagy Carmichael's music, and it was touched in an instant, that is, the moment his voice rang, there was a strong intuition of "this must be a good movie". I especially love this intuition.
The spread of the story began when his father came out to himself when he was 75 years old, which meant that he played the role of heterosexuality for a whole life. In the last four years of his life, his father led a free gay life. However, the movie does not intend to show how happy his father’s old age is. Instead, it uses an alternate way to tell the story of his father when he was married in 1955 and his father before his death in 2003. The two time-space fragments are interspersed with each other to let the viewers. In the travel of time, I felt that my father was truly Fall in love in the last four years. It also reflects that the 44-year marriage between his father and his mother was an illusion.
However, the largest area of the film is about loneliness.
The first lonely story is about the mother.
My father was the curator of the museum, and he was busy with work when he was young. There is no element of temperature and emotion. The mother, whose feelings were ignored and left out, had no choice but to turn around and plunge into the game with her son. She raised her hand to make a gun and pretended to shoot at her son. The son also performed the action of being shot and killed.
She drove with her son, sometimes let her son drive her as a conductor, sometimes she drove by herself, and her son as a conductor... To say what the mother’s 44 years of loneliness paid for, it is probably that the father insisted on playing heterosexual simultaneously during the marriage. This role didn't reveal its authenticity until half a year after her death.
The second lonely story is about his son Olive.
Olive, who fell into the pain of losing his father, is an illustrator. Because of his grief, he puts his love in his creation, but the paintings cannot hide his thoughts. Every sketch is about "Sad" and "Sad". With "Sad", the friend finally couldn't stand it, reminding him that pen & paper is not your friend. So he took him to the drag party.
Oliver, wearing a wig and a beard, dressed as Freud, a psychiatrist who listened to patients' psychological problems, was also at this time when he met Anna, who was dressed as a mute, and Anna knew he was unhappy at a glance. It is precisely because of this tacit understanding of the soul that the relationship between the two quickly warmed up and spread.
Anna is also a lonely person, so she said "I am not very good at happiness". She is unwilling to answer her father's phone calls, and she has been displaced between the city and the city, between the apartment and the hotel for many years. Later, Olive invited him to live with him and cleared a room for her. Anna looked at this room and cried. It was tears aroused by a sudden sense of belonging. However, Olive does not understand why this is. Two people who didn’t know how to express love came together, but they still couldn’t resolve Anna’s feeling of alienation when she had insomnia at midnight. It was not until Anna chose to leave that Olive didn’t understand what it means to miss. Go to New York to find Anna. It wasn't until she was standing in front of Anna's apartment that Olive learned that she had never left and had been in LA, but it was also in this line of business. As a result, the gap between them collapsed and they reached a genuinely relative consensus.
Just like the name of the movie "Beginners", it seems to imply that in the relationship, Olive is a novice, Anna is also a novice, and we are all novices. You have to experience this novice-like life before you find the true belonging of your soul.
Director Mike Mills tells the story very well. This is shown in front of the Russell dog named "Arthur". Arthur completely plays the lonely sustenance himself. He can't leave Olive for a moment. He needs to take it to the party and play. Hold it, and hold it when you go out, otherwise it will mourn, and the death of his father made Arthur completely pin his feelings on Olive. Like Olive, the scene where one person and one dog sit on a park bench, Ya Se didn't care about the surrounding environment, but listened quietly to Olive's words. This lonely mutual sustenance resonated with people's hearts.
What impressed me the most about the whole film was not that Anna looked at her room and cried, nor was it the loneliness that Olive and Arthur entrusted to each other. It was the conversation when Olive picked up Arthur from his father's former lover Andy.
"Is it because I am a gay? You never contacted me, never visited me."
"Not...but because...My father loves you too much."
When the two embraced and wept, I Can't help but collapse the embankment.
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