"The Edge Diary"-Where did you sleep last night?

Aletha 2021-12-10 08:01:24

What is the price of madness? It is Ginsberg’s Howl "I saw the most outstanding mind of this generation destroyed by madness." For someone like me who is immersed in the doctrine of the golden mean, all that madness only exists in books and pictures. In between, watching the fire from the other side and playing acupuncture points without pain and no itch, that madness really means madness, because the wind, the horse and the cow are so indistinguishable that they can’t find anything in common, I have to secretly sigh, if I have a personality, What will happen to the world?

Youth is always labelled as rebellious, but it is often not worth it, because rebellion does not belong to youth, middle-aged or even old rebellion is better than youth, so youth is the banner of resistance, where it is slanderous and deceived. Everyone knows that this is his damn youth, and youth should resist frantically, regardless of whether he is correct or not, because it is correct only if it is established in his own eyes. I watched this Leonardo poster for many years, but I never thought about finding this movie. Until recently, a friend of Mtime.com wrote an article "A History of the Changing Acting Skills of Male Stars in Europe and America-Lai Leonardo", I realized that I can't get around this movie.

The cruelest thing about youth is not youth itself, but the belief that you can control everything without losing yourself and allowing the world to revolve around you. It seems that everything is possible, there is no limit, no bottom line, no limit, everything seems to require us to go Salvation is a heroic history that can be repeated. Often, this is the cruelest.

At the beginning of the film, Leonardo in 1995, just like the depression, fragmented freedom, innocence and evil eyes in the memory, appeared on the stage like Romeo in the later period. At that moment, I seemed to have penetrated into time. The tunnel has returned to the era with strong postmodernism. Compared to the era of inaction, where consumption prevails and self-filled with rubbish, I prefer such postmodernism, because it is still pure and fair. There is a bottom line, no matter in terms of color, lens style, scene transition and music matching, it is full and true.

Who would stretch out the hand of a praying man's arm in order to stop this billowing torrent? This torrent of torrents caused a heavy, psychedelic elephant to start a tap dance, just to prove that he is an omnipotent elephant.

Jim is studying and living in a church boys’ school. The education system around the world has places that can be vilified. Repeated beatings brought out the rigid and lacking air of freedom, and Leonardo’s Shakespearean monologues In this muffled opening, the background is haunting the choir’s organ and the ethereal female and male vocals. In such an atmosphere, it is not difficult for us to glimpse the storyline that is about to lead out. The four friends lived the friendship time of brothers who were only able to have when they were students and wore open pants, while their best friend Bobby was lying in the hospital bed waiting for a miracle due to leukemia. The plot of the movie is moving forward in the structure we expected, so I saw Leonardo in 1995 brought the poetry of Romeo afterwards, Rimbaud’s madness, Jack’s publicity, and the thunder and lightning on the night Bobby died. In the midst of the Canada, wantonly publicity. It is not so much that youth endows people with the wild dream of saving the world, as it is the impulse to save everything that gives life value.

In the end, Jim failed to become an NBA's most valuable player, and he also brought the shining basketball diary into the dark basement. He failed to become the hero of American comics to realize his dreams and fantasy, but fell into the physical world. In the fantasy world created by the little drugs in the fire, with the hidden diseases of ideals and the beauty of salvaging hope from the world like an artist, this omnipotent fantasies collapsed in the platonic self-prostitution. In the United States, the United States has never lacked heroic fantasies to save the world, nor has it lacked these practitioners who only burned for a short period of time, but only a very small number of them can successfully climb to the top. They will eventually lose themselves or lose. In the future, it will become a rat in the corner of the city waiting for the society to eradicate. When Jim was expelled from school and kicked out by his mother, he was abandoned by all the people and institutions that should be responsible. At that time, there was no choice but to forcefully retain the last ideal place.

"They were expelled from the academy because of their madness because they published lewd hymns on the skull-like windowpanes."

A gay coach, a teacher who doesn't teach, a mother who only knows how to ask for God, and the fantasy of a campus massacre, but got the first help from Reggie, a black man who met on a street basketball court, and finally sobered up in the death of a street vagrant. At that time, I realized that this resistance was so weak. Our exaggerated power became the spice in the world of livelihood and logistics. Because we don't even know where we slept last night, let alone know more information.

Fantasyism is dead. Idealism has long been proved to be the toy of the ancients, and for those of us who are experiencing the possibility of being similar, should we be more crazy, or not crazy enough? I think you can just think about it. I remembered Curt’s "where did you sleep last night" again in my ear, the last heart-piercing cry, was it madness or the last hopelessness? I can only take a long breath, because it is too thin, so I cherish it too much.

2011-2-22

View more about The Basketball Diaries reviews

Extended Reading

The Basketball Diaries quotes

  • Mickey: Shit happens alright? Shit fucking happens... christ!

  • Jim Carroll: I saw this girl next to me who wasn't beautiful until she smiled.